Today's Song-She's Electric by Oasis

Yeah, my lip's being really stupid right now.  Its all cracked and whatnot.

I should download more cds, and ask my parents to go to Leslies on Saturday.

If I can, I have to buy some candy and a gift

Beautiful highlights of my glorious day:
-James gave a lovely heart shaped cookie.
-I got my peer edits done, all I need is Ms. Mullins to read it
-Got new seats in math, not truly happy since I sit right in front of the vents and next to the window.  Which, is one of the worst spots ever.  Tomorrow Im wearing my squirrel jacket.  Or steal James's sweatshirt.
-Leslie finally came to lunch!
-James, Val, Leslie and I sat at the round table and we were so cool.
-I do not have an angry asian stare by the way.  And if I did, it wasnt because she touched him, because she looked at us.  I will scrape her head off someday.  Or, what I wanted to do on Friday, egg her house with lots of different colored eggs.  Just like Mike.
-Went to the band room and met Mr. Schlabach.  He's a nifty teacher, I want to be in band even though Id probably learn nothing.  I was sad to leave for homeroom.
-Jon borrowed my hair ties and put his hair up.  Highly interesting, but he gave it back at the end of SSR and my orange one was wet!
-I got pissed at the sub.
-Tyler and I had everyone at our table do their deaths and all you other people have to too and give it to me or Tyler.  He's gonna make a book.  Im gonna kill Yohan with 40 angry midgets with a ninja suit on.
-Gym.  Dance.  No friends.  Seriously, no friends.
-Science..movie?  How does Tyler, Boki, Jared and Chris have fun??  There's like no time for it!  I want to play with the blocks sooo much.
-I printed a million pages and Michael did too, lol.  Then, me and James decided to get a child and our new son is Sven!  But, James found out Tyler was my bitch.  Lol...  We talked about the family tree a little more...Im Vals sister/mom.  *shudder*

I dont think I have an angry asian stare.  If I did, someone prevent it!  Its scary!

I want...Eminem, Franz Ferdinand, Keane, Modest Mouse, Muse, Stereofuse, the Cure, the Killers and Collective Soul..oh, and the other Red Hot Chili Peppers cd.

Ha ha, Natalie's super paranoid.

Your lord and master,
Lisa

It was a nice cookie

Todays Song-As Lovers Go by Dashboard Confessional

Yeah, Im not doing what Im supposed to be doing again.

I got mail from Westview about registrating and choosing my classes and getting ready for high school.  I dont know if I can do what I want to do.  Not when I have no help from my siblings about the classes.  Nor know about any of the classes it offers.  Or if I can really take summer classes so I can do what I want and loosen up my schedule when Im a senior.  I dont do anything during the summer anyway, why not take two classes so I can get high school credit without busting my ass during the school year?

In first grade, I wanted to be a teacher or a doctor.  I screwed off the teacher option since I cant teach Calvin anything so who can I teach?  So, I was set to be a doctor.  Then, my brother went to college and now is doing all this business and computer stuff.  I thought that was cool since computers are like my favorite things and I rocked at everything when my class went to the Computer Lab.  And, Junior Acheivement was easy as cake in 4th grade.  But then, doctor.  I started watching Scrubs and wanted to be a doctor again and I got a new baby cousin.  I love little kids.  And, I can take care of skin pretty well since mine is made out of shit.  Disagree?  My fingers, they look like Sarah's neck.  And my hands have like extra skin making them look freaking old.  My feet, same as my hands sorta.  Theyre like discolored.  My legs, scarred.  But, theyre getting better.  I wanted to be a dermatologist early in the school year since I met the coolest one who actually did help me.  But then, I didnt just want to do skin stuff.  So, back to the business stuff since I couldnt make up my mind about the doctor stuff.  But, Junior Acheivement this year fucking bored me to death.  Carlos had fun with all the stuff we had to do but I just wanted a freaking profit, which isnt good enough.  And, when I was filling out my SAT form, they asked me what classes I took/was going to take in high school and the doctor stuff interested me.  All of the -logys sounded cool.  Cells and genetics interests me.  And, the leadership thing, the tuitions with doctoring stuff interested me too.  Cloning though, sucks like shit.  As euthanasia is something that should be legal for the officially depressed and let's leave it at that.  Doctor assistant suicide, should be legal also.  Abortion, legal for women under 27 and a half years old.  Thats what it should be.  If youre like 30, you should know better.  College kids and kids getting out of college into the real world, dont.  Some weirdo adoption agencies buy, fucking buy, cambodian kids to put for adoption for the parents who want kids.  Why dont you help the agencies?  Give your babies to them.  Youre old, you know better, give it to someone who wants it.  Unless you get raped, but you gotta file for rape to get an abortion.  Thats what I want.

Alright..getting off my point.

So, westview, sent me a letter.  Im going to have to choose classes that will effect my college life.  My college life.  I dont know where the hell Im going.  I could go to Stanford like my doctor with Val and James.  Yeah, he went to Stanford and he is pretty good.  But, its in California and it costs 5 times as much as my parents make a year for one school year.  5 times, most likely more.  Without taxes and paying off the bank.  We owe some money to some people.  And our house, damn expensive.  I just want to go to an Ivy League school, or a college that should be one.  Not Harvard though.  Or Brown.

I can take psycology classes with lots of science stuff and math stuff.  I dont really need history even though its one of my best classes.  And history interests me too.  I dont know about philosophy though.  My brother hated that class.  He said it was full of nothing or close to it.

Whatever I choose though, I will work my ass off.  Bs arent going to be good enough for me.  Ill be like the triplets in Me, Myself and Irene.  The stupidest I can be is a jama mama B.  Which is pretty high.

And, I will do marching band.  Leslie suckered me into it.  And Scott.  Well, Scott didnt try but he kept on practicing his drum skills and it sounds really cool.

Chinese and french sound cool.  Ill do those.  Cantonese though, not mandarin.  Cantonese is so much prettier.  And if I can speak that, I can speak mandarin like easy.

And whatever I want to do because I actually got my mom's approval and the school is just right there.  Unlike Meadow, where I cant do anything because of transportation.  Id like to do hockey..that would kick.  I dont know if Westview offers it since my brother had to go to Indoor Goals.

Your lord and master,
Lisa

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Todays Song-If Youre Not The One

Ahh, why couldnt we all go over to Chris's everyday?

Man, it was so much fun.

And, we got work done!  Course we were over for 7 hours.

7.  10-5.  10! EARLY MUCHO!  And they wouldnt give me sugar until 12!!

So, when we were upstairs screwing off doing actual work, I tried to go to sleep.  That memory will be with me forever, Chris and Sven playing a violent game talking to themselves, Val writing, me half asleep and James lying next to me with his arm over me.  He looks really nice half asleep.

I dont want to lose the feeling of his arm over me, or rubbing my arm because we just came back from outside which was freezing.  Or my hand in his.  Its just too nice to lose.

Yeah, some of the things I said in my last post, Ive changed my mind a little.  Some.  And, a little.

Your lord and sappy master,
Lisa

Todays Song-Ways and Means by Snow Patrol
Todays Other Song-Don't Let Go by Weezer

Most of what I feel are in those two songs, and its confusing.

This whole month got depression, commited suicide, floated along the river and is now the ham in your sandwich.

Not trying to be funny, but what would you bet that we recycle bodies into food?

Why couldnt it be May already, Id be doing gym most likely, its almost summer, theme park will be over, everyone's ok with each other, we all just want to be lazy and screw off.  Where as January, there are people wishing for others to fucking die already.

Speaking of death, Tyler has planned out his.  I havent yet.  All I know if that it will be in 2075, or 2080, depends if my grandchildren are old enough.
When he dies, I will attend his birthday party wearing all black.  I will laugh my ass off and cry because of laughing so much.

He's one of the few friends who I havent imagined their homicide.  So far Ive killed about 13 of them.

Yes, Im cruel, yes I have a problem, yes murder is bad, yes killing off good friends of mine isnt right at all.  But it feels nice.  To imagine they arent there anymore.

And you know what?  Im done.  Im done feeling bad about wanting to kill off friends of mine to get more attention towards me.  Not that Im like Minni, just that, sometimes I feel like they know Im there but theyre puposely ignoring me because "I dont care."

I do care.  I do care if no one partners with me.  I do care if no one walks across the room to tell me something.  I do care when Im outside of a circle when I want to be in.  I do care when they all play their retarded games that arent funny and I dont even have a chance to join in.

So, Im gonna hang out with some of my other friends.  It felt so good to run around with Tyler, Jared and Jon this morning.  So good.  I would do it everyday if I was single.  But because Im not, Ill try to tough it out and hang out with whoever James is hanging out with because thats what I do.  I dont want to lose hold.
But, that was the most fun Ive had in a long while and that's everyday for them.

Most of the time I end up going into Ms. Vanden Berg's room.
That room is a nice room to be in during the mornings.

Not that I blame him for my morning miseries, I blame the others.

Its funny, last year, everyone stole everything of mine.  Now that the new kleptos have found an easier target, Im left alone.  I fought for my stuff back.  They did it for entertainment and I didnt get mad because I found it funny myself.  But then, "they" were Boki, Jared and Tyler instead of Michael, Yohan and Brendan.  Oh, and James.  For both sets.

Why couldnt my 6th schedule be the same for all of my middle school years?  Except for the CIM stuff.  Or, well, the schedule can change but the class can't.  Or maybe, it would be better if a couple of people werent in my classes and the people I want in it to be in mine.

Tomorrow, I dont know.
My mom might be able to pick me up but if she isnt, Val or James MIGHT drop me off at my house.  I feel bad.  I dunno, its like a hassle.  I didnt properly asked.  I was clueless like.  Helpless.

Your lord and master,
Lisa

Hm, well, I guess everything might be better if I work some stuff out

Todays Song-Superman by Lazlo Bane

Ill stay in my position thank you.

Yeah, so today..I dont care.

Highlights-
     James had a nice shirt on but since all of the other guys were yelling RICH! at him, he took it off.  Eh, whatever, screw them.
     Did my book report and got 48.
     Zach got four right on his pretest and I got three.  I tried them, he guessed for all of them.
     Tyler and I talked about ...I dont know.  It was nice though.
     I love my table, I hate doing art.
     Screw the sub.
     Nap?


My day.  And if you dont know my schedule, then youre retarded.  Ive posted before posts my schedule.  But, if you dont read everything I post dont blame you.  I mean, I wouldnt.

I went to the garage to get food for Calvin and me, I got a tv dinner and I got him pizza and guess who takes the pizza instead?  My aunt.  Yeah.

This post is horribly stupid

Your lord and master,
Lisa

Todays Song-Smile by Weezer

I forgot I have their cds on my computer, Im so good.

Yeah, the last few posts Ive posted were crappy.

What has happened...

We started genetic engineering and cloning in ethics in science.  Bored off my ass because Ms. Pittock is one minded.  Sure she was cool in health but Ms. Brueng or however you spell her last name, kicked more.

Mac still has a few problems I need to correct because hes gonna go downhill sometime.

Art is a blast.  We keep on talking and talking then suddenly stop and its great.  Its like dynamite.  *whisper whisper*  Lol

Classes before lunch and after CIM still makes me want to bash my head against stuff.

Ms. Mullins has aim, which scares me.

I took the SATs on Saturday for four hours at Beaverton High School where there are more hot guys than Glencoe.  I sat at the window seat behind this tall bleach blonde hair guy with those kick ass baseball/hoodie hats.  Or, well, I cant remember what their called.  I love those hats, ever since I saw the lead singer of Smile Empty Soul wear it in Bottom of a Bottle.  Theyre mad sexy hats.

Also went to Milwaukee after going to Jin Wah after the tests.  I guess it got better now that we learned that we have to be aggressive when ordering even though the waiters cant remember anything, they avoid us, and make worse food now.  But! I got jello with an umbrella so I guess its not all that bad.  Yeah, so, we first went to my Great Uncle's house to get directions to go to my Grandma's cousins house.  We stayed at her cousins house for 5 hours.  I sat on their damn coach being forced to listen to their cambodian stuff for 4 hours.  Calvin got to play Grand Theft Auto and had ice cream.  Sure, I could have done that but the guy didnt like me, I was too tired to move, the coach was puffy and the lamp was pretty interesting.

And after all that we went to the hospital to go see my new baby cousin!  My aunt had her baby on Friday.  Her name is Hailey.  Im gonna call her Haystack.  And because Im the only crazy relative who will do that, no one will use that.  Theyd probably call her Hay.  Or Ley.  Haystack is just too cool though.  And, Ill buy her farm stuff.

I predict she will be a soccer player.  Now my Baby Cousin (the first) has a new cousin playmate.  Mark Jr, Haileys brother, doesnt like her.  But, Mark Jr, is all spazzy and 4 years old.

I finally got around to burning some of the cds I have on my computer into blank cds.  So, I have Blink 182, Oasis, Snow Patrol, All American Rejects and Bowling For Soup.  I did a good job.

I need to find my Rooney cd, I lost that.  I need to find all of my cds actually.  I only know where John Mayer and Vanessa Carlton is.  I lost Rooney, The Strokes, Bowling For Soup, Clay Aiken (gah) and other ones.

I also need to find my movies...

Yeah, so, I need to wake up at 10 on Friday.  Then I get to drive around looking for stuff.  Probably should also find my money and all that stuff.
Uhh, 10.  I never wake up at 10.  Or, Id probably have to wake up at 9..unless people dont mind me with messy hair and my pj pants and overly big shirt.

This reminds me of our transportation..and four teenagers in the back seats.  Val?

I wanna listen to Blink 182 now but its too colorful for this time of day, when my dad and uncle come back home from work.

Highlights of my day-
     Finished my story..sorta
     I got a 41 out of 52 on my math test.
     Had another meeting about nothing because everyone was in the classroom.  Maybe we should talk to Mr. Doyle..when theme park arrives, everyone will want to be in the classroom to work on things during lunch.  And we were there first.  I dont know, I just dont want all these people listening to our groups ideas.  I mean, if Aaron had heard that we were doing what were doing for our theme and that were using a lake, hes gonna tell Ben and Ben will make their by a lake and somehow mutate our idea into a little different one for themselves.
     Tyler, Katie, Yohan, Saywer and I didnt really do anything for CIM.  But! we were the only ones who did the T-Chart.
     I love art.  Its really fun.  But the cans are dumb!  My god, I will like beat up my can when we finish this project.
     I love science now.  Its not that bad when youre sitting next to your friends.  Unlike some of my other seating places.  But, our table is so dirty.  Really really dirty.
     Bully stuff.  I wonder if the bullies of 8th grade actually paid attention to the things that apply to them.  Or if they screwed off the whole thing.  Because, Im getting tired of their stupid behaviors.

Ms. Vanden Berg..is not so funny.  Especially that giving mack daddy comment after school.  Thank you Ms. Vanden Berg.  *shudder*

I want a sweater.  A grey, red and black one.

Oh, hey, the skirt I wanted that was like a tutu, Shelby has it.  She got it at Hot Topic.  I dont care.  Whatever.  I dont wear skirts anyway..even though I dont have any.

Id like one though.  Something interesting that doesnt look bad when its knee length because theyre plenty of ugly knee length skirts.

Im gonna dance up the stairs, good night.

Your lord and master,
Lisa

Todays Song-Something loud and instrumental

Its like going school 6 days a week

And repeating friday twice.

I dont wanna go anymore.

And, I only have twenty minutes.

My mom thinks I have until like 9 BUT I DONT!

ITS 7:22 AND MY PARENTS ARENT DOING ANYTHING!

Last time, we left at this time to be early.

Sure, we were 30 minutes early BUT COME ON!

Its a 13 minute drive!

With their terrible finding skills itll be 20!

Your lord and master,
Lisa

Todays Song-Shes Electric by Oasis

Teenymonkee (10:11:16 PM): ....I was confuse
Teenymonkee (10:11:18 PM): Anxious
Teenymonkee (10:11:19 PM): Nervous
Teenymonkee (10:11:21 PM): Sweaty

Oh! Art is as dirty as health last year...AND ITS ART!!

Ha ha, James loves me and fought with Mr. Doyle to have me in his group

I love him too

Your lord and master,
Lisa

Todays Song-New American Classic by Taking Back Sunday

I saw a stoner punk wannabe with a TBS sign on his jacket.  I wanted to rip it off.

At this rate, I will never do homework.  But, its not important.

What is is that the damn people on my bus think that they can take apart my group and use the people.  You dont use people, you lean on them for help.  Which I wont even do.  And anyway, ha.  They cant destroy my theme park group.  I mean, James and Val are together on this and James and Val want me to be in the group I believe and Chris is Vals locker partner and Sven is Chris's friend and also relys on James.  So Aaron, so Brittany, you cant have them.  And the future preps who hear about our group, you cant kill us off.  We are an official group.  Seriously, Chris told me.

And, Im getting insecure once again.  If someone knows about something new on a day that starts off the school week and does it better...thats not right.  Cant I be me without fighting sometime something happens to me?  And 6th period...

We gotta let it go.  We gotta understand they like us more.  We gotta let some fun into someones life.  I mean, I know, someone gets it all, but then again, someone has nothing.

No one can replace anyone.  At least, not with me around.

Except, the laughter haunted me.  Its still in my head.

I hope it snows tomorrow, I prefer not to go to school.

Except, I wanna continue trying to talk to Billy the mysterious Stoller kid who walks through my neighborhood to get to his.  Tomorrow, if I see him, I will ask if he's in 8th grade.  And then whats his favorite color.  And then his favorite band.  I will continue to ask until I know who the hell he is.  Because, he looks like a nice new friend.  And I desperately need one over here.  Im so alone in my neighborhood.  Maybe, if he knows Alex too...

I should ask James about Alex.  See how that short fucker is.

Im too much of a good kid.  I take tests willingly, dont beg for money from people other than my parents, I dont "borrow" money, I dont do revenge, I dont talk shit about decent people.  Decent-decent to me maybe not you but to me.

Sleep..but maybe pack a yogurt for lunch tomorrow because I know we're gonna be in the class again.

Your lord and master,
Lisa

Todays song-The Fallen Interlude by Blink 182

Yeah, todays my sisters 22nd birthday.  And we dont know where the hell she is.  Shes been gone for two years without any contact.  All we know is that she's in LA.

Mono Elsea (4:37:36 PM): I got a hair cut
brainac2001 (4:37:55 PM): cool
brainac2001 (4:38:02 PM): i bet you look good
Mono Elsea (4:38:07 PM): Lol
Mono Elsea (4:38:09 PM): Mad sexy
brainac2001 (4:38:14 PM): i'm sure

Yeah.

I love you a lot.

I was in a nice mood to talk about pointless stuff.

But, oy, whatever.  Im not gonna explain why.

Your lord and master,
Lisa

Todays Song-Hallelujah by John Cale

Like I said, I WANT TO KICK TYLER!!  DAMNIT!  HIS ASS IS MINE!
Man, will HE burn in hell.

A Hallers shouldnt judge my friends and me, I mean, of all people, oy you know what-No.  No, no, no.

Well, today I went to Chris's house!  It was a blast.  We got nothing done.  Except our theme and our place.  Which, is quite a bit.  And some basic rules and the sections.  Next weekend we're most likely gonna go buy some wood.  We did tried doing stuff, ate, had cake, hid each others shoes and ran around.  We also asked about Chris's mom's obession with chickens.  She has five of them in their kitchen, lol.

"So, Mrs. Knauer, whats with the chickens?"
"Oh, I dont know, they just appeared" or something like that
"But, chickens dont just happen"

OH MAN!  Lol!  Coke came out of Svens nose, lol.

It sorta went downhill from that, lol.  We did nothing.

And some people arent skilled when looking for their shoes.  I mean, I found mine three times and hid them myself.  So I knew where they were.  But others *ahem* found them lost them found them lost them found one lost it again.  I mean, you gotta hide them if you dont want to lose them.  Not leave them there for others to put it in Drew's room.  Tee hee.

Ok, homework, S.S.
Native American report thing.

Joy to the world.

Your lord and master,
Lisa

Todays Song-Violence

Like violence, you have me
Forever and after
Like violence, you kill me
Forever and after

I did the chinese torture thing on Calvins elbow and I gave him a bruise but he says it dont hurt.  Heh, liar.  I poked his funny bone pretty hard.

Mr. Weatherman, I have nothing to do today and it would have been nice to go party at Chris's.  Thanks for the freezing rain.  I mean, you could have given us snow.  Too bad you like to mess with children's heads

Leslie and me partied yesterday.  We got the math stuff looking pretty well and had pizza.  Yum.  Lol, everyone had like coke or root beer and I had strawberry lemonade with a lemon slice in it.  And they looked at me when I ate the lemon, lol.  Im weird.  And ha, Leslie had a dream about muppets attacking her, lol.

I am so taking band in high school.  Im gonna be a drummer like Scott.  He sounded shibby even though it was simple.  Boot camp!  Loads of fun for the band people or the marching band.  Marching band sounds cool.  Itll give me a reason to go to football games.

Calvins sleeping on my pillow with my blanket on him hugging my moshi pillow.  Hes a pansy man.  I mean, my pillowcase has a purple hello kitty on it.

Know whats hilarious, before, I could find any love song but now I can only find the ones about trying to survive whatever, dissing the person or about the stuff after a breakup.  Yeah, thats really happy

I love the name Holly.

Yeah, well, this blog was pointless.

Your lord and master,
Lisa

Todays Song-We Can Run Away Now Theyre All Dead and Gone by Snow Patrol

Man, does the lead singer have a sexy voice.

Half the fun of it is that I can’t keep up
And I lose my breath and what’s worse
Is I don’t think I’m the first

^Different Song, Half The Fun by the same band^

Instead of going forever about my unbelievably boring day, I will write about the exciting stuff plus more.

Yesterday in Ethics in Science we were in the library once again and and I was partners with Tyler because he is unbelievably retarded.  And, Katie was being too stubborn.  Statistics is fun!  Theres plenty of information in stats.  So instead of arguing with Katie what was important, I partnered Tyler since he lets me do anything, lol.  He called me normal today.

Its the second time this week that someone called me normal.  Maybe its the lack of sleep, or the sinus problems, or how the damn SATs wont tell me where Im gonna take them thats making me quiet and not random.

Seriously, its ten days away and I dont know if Im going to Beaverton High School or Century.

And then theres the thing about the new SATs.  I dont want to write an essay.  Especially since Im not 17, I might have to write it by hand and I wouldnt care about the subject.  Maybe I should ask Ms. Mullins to have an essay day so I can practice a little.

My eraser!  A total of 8 people have written on it!  And Tyler smoothed it out today in logic games, lol.  He read my l. arts paper which is stupidly about teenagers cutting themselves and he was playing with my eraser so he was like oh! Lisa!  I have to smooth this out!  Or you will cut yourself on it!  Lol, he is such a dork.  I was like ok ORANGIE, go ahead, thanks for being such a wonderful friend!  Youre very nice to protect me from my sharp plastic eraser!

Orangie, he wants me to call him Orangie.  Which I dont like since it sorta rhymes with a bad nasty word.  I want to call him Tangerine.  Oh well, I will think of something cooler.

Mrs. O'Neil, ha ha, caught me and James kissing after school.  It was so funny.  Me and James ran away in opposite directions, lol.  Ms. O'Neil, tee hee.

So many teachers know about us, its really weird.  I havent told them.  I dont think James would go "Hey (teacher name here)!  Lisa and I are together!!"  Maybe theyre all psychic.

We sat in a chair together in the library during s.s. and the teachers didnt care.  Which is weird since when I was in there for ethics in science, the librarian yelled at these two girls who did that.  Maybe because we're old and we deserve special privileges.
Plus, they were being all lesbiany and freaking sorta.

Ooh man, in s.s. in the library, this special needs kid went up to me and tried touching the little beads on my shirt!!  I was like GAH!!  And he backed away when I put my binder in front of my and asked what it said.  I told him and ran for it to tell Natalie.  I hate polo though.  Only reason I wear it because I didnt pay for it.  And it was free.

I hate it so much that I dont have a female best friend in my homeroom class.  I didnt have a partner in art so I was in a threesome with Aaron and Michael.  I really hate it.  The girls in my hr are my friends but they wouldnt pick me.  Im too different from them.  Too different than 2/3 of the b hall girls.

The guitarists/band people in Ms. Mullins classroom werent all that cool.  They didnt like drummers that much, you could obviously tell which is not right.  I love drummers.  I love the drums.  And I should have been in Mr. Doyles classroom.  Lol, Tyler said that one of the guitarists did the intro for Thriller and Mr. Doyle was like Oh! its that one Michael Jackson song.  And and, they were talking about how the bands now dont have to play intruments by hand they could use a computer and how they wear pants below their but, lol.  I really should have gone over there.  I just had to follow that one guy with the interesting beard.

Theme park, final group, Val, James, Chris, Sven and me.  Sven could have been Boki but only if he had begged!  Oh, if only Boki begged as much as Sven, it would have been better for me.  But we need Sven.  Eh.  Need more than love.

I have this whole 100 blank cd spindle and I desperately need to burn my cds into cds.  Course, I have like 15 on my computer.  That would take 15 times 45 minutes...gaah a whole day?

I really wish that my baby cousin went to my other cousins everyday.  So then our group could work at my house which has tons of feet of wood floors and tables everywhere.  Its like a perfect place to do stuff.  Four tables, an outside that kicks ass and wait no, it would be better not to look at our hideous backyard.  The only reason it looks that way because our backyard wasnt done like everyone elses.  Our house was like the first to be built on this farm.  Farm, I live on an old farm.  Well, not anymore.  Its more like a old people neighborhood for richies.  Which is not my family.

Im out, Im gonna get an extra 30 minutes of sleep.

Your lord and master,
Lisa

Todays Song-Tiny Vessels

This is the song Ms. Mullins was singing..
She is beautiful but she dont mean a thing to me

That song is the song that reminds me that she means nothing and Im just insane.

Because I am me, and you all know me.

I have this one thing that I desperately want to put in my AIM profile but if I do it will hurt quite a bit of people who wont get it.

Theres this one thing Tyler read in CIM that I wrote in my planner and he thought of it in the wrong way, course it was written out wrongly, so I destroyed it and my reputation is now like in his control.  Well, not really.  Just, the way some guys will think of me.  Guys like Mac, Boki and Jared.  But, he knows Id kill him if he told ANYONE.  But, I trust him.  I trust Tyler.  Tylers my most trustworthy friend who wont judge me other than Nataly.

I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler. 
I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.
I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.
I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.
I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.
I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.
I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.
I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.
I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.
I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler.  I trust Tyler

But, damnit! its hard to get that into my head.  Damn hard.

Oh, theres something Ive just figured out about me!  Its only been six days of the new year and Im finding my inner stupid.

I swear everytime Im pissed, even if Im just not really pissed, I swear.  And now I sound like a sailor because my family is turning into deaf nazis.  And my insecurity is getting the best of me.

Stuff I need to get into my damn head-
-I can speak
-I can sing
-I know the melody of every one of my favorite songs
-No one watches what I do, I could dance while Im walking if I freaking want to
-He loves me, there cant be any second thoughts
-My friends know me, its been two years
-I could never fall for my 2nd best guy friend, hes too much of a friend
-Footsies is where you hit each other with your feet.  So when I think Im just kicking Mac, he thinks we're flirting and so does everyone else.  No, I kick people, I dont play footsies.  I just dont.
-What Tyler told my brother is a lie, its not possible, it cant happen, he cant be like that.  He told me he thought I was Calvin so he purposely said the things he said.
-My dad can do it, and will do it in time

Too bad I dont have my own private room.  Id have this on a huge whiteboard and repeat it every morning.

You know what I need to do?
Not let anyone read my planner, at all.

It sounds so true.  And theres evidence to back it up.  But, it cant happen.  Id like no, it will just not happen.

You may not understand this post and I wont either in two months, but its all for the better.

Theme park in less than a month.  If Im going to help acheive Vals goal I will need to learn how to sing in public and be ok talking to teachers.
So I shall sing to every song I know
Talk to teachers more
Raise my hand
Speak louder
Speak more and use bigger words
Calm down

I need a whole book collection to do this.  Books are like my mexican soap opera.  Memorizing, distracting, helpful in more ways than one.
I seriously need to get Perks of Being A Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky.  Seriously need to get it.

Most of my friends have seen me kiss, so why do I not do it more?  Arrrg

Your lord and master,
Lisa

I do love James.

Todays Song-Roller Coaster

Happy New Year's!
..or more like the day after since Im slow and its after 12

Lets go over 2004..

What I have learned..
- A guy can be one of your bestest friends
- Single middle age women from Arizona obsessed with water can not teach..in other words, Ms. Allen
- Guys can actually think of me as a interest other than just a friend
- When angry and pissed, my voice gets squeakier
- Im amazingly good at probability
- I will be doomed forever for having social studies teacher who dont know about the stuff, I guess Mr. Corey took the skillz from all of my future and present and past teachers
- There are some PC games that I like
- I can school anyone in tetris
- Paint pens do exist and arent part of book world/my imagination
- Buying your own food is awesome
- When I make my own dinner, I eat everything
- Jamming without knowing how to play an intrument the correct way is okay
- The SATs arent really that hard, just full of big words and somewhat complicated math problems
- Having full cds are much cooler than having certain songs
- The 80s are one of the coolest decades ever
- Some people arent as magical as you thought
- Its really hard not to be stereotyped
- Some of the people you thought were decent could be one of the bitchiest fuckers in Oregon
- Certain computer stuff are really really cheap
- It does matter if you have a dvd burner or not
- Most of my favorite books have been made into movies or will be (Lindsey Lohan does not deserve to be Blair)

What I Will Try To Do This Year-
- Actually do homework before taking a shower
- Save money instead of spend it
- Read more college bound books
- Not lose school stuff like pens at home
- Try not to make some guys jealous of other guys
- Stop thinking of some people as posers
- Be proud of my preppy clothes since I didnt buy them
- Not create a hatred towards teachers
- Talk more
- Practice more on speaking
- Walk straighter
- Not destroy the rest of my colored pencils
- Be more friendlike
- Dont battle for friendships
- Brush my teeth more, I cant braces if I still get cavities

And because this is a list post, I will make another one

What I NEED to do Tomorrow-
- Do my tuesday shirt
- Check for homework
- Organize clothes
- Stuff on beaten up notecard

Aww man, allergies in the middle of winter when most things are dead..
Only I can have them because Im so skilled
*SNEEZE*

Your lord and master,
Lisa