Neo-Lisaism

Ah, Lisa exemplifies the process of disowning the true self.
With puberty she went from being a whole, authentic person to a diminished version of herself.


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Its Over
02.28.05 (5:58 pm)   [edit]
Today's Song-Sleeping In by The Postal Service


Sven : my but feels bad from all the misuse and unsittting down
Me : My head feels bad from the lack of pillows
Me : Ill miss you guys though
Sven : heh
Sven : yea i guess me too
Me : I knew you loved us
Sven : lol



No more-
Theme park,
Lying next to James,
Saturday meeting at Chris',
Running around Chris' house,
Killing Chris' stuff animals,
Laughing at the guys for their behavior,
Scaring Andrew,
Having real coversations with a real adult (Chris' mom),
Just being in Chris' house,
Stealing mints,
Laughing like every 5 minutes,

Everything thats been normal for me for the past 5 weeks.



But a good thing is that I can go to the library finally,
And actually go shopping.





So, tomorrow, we turn in our forecasting sheets.

This is like the beginning.





We get to start all over and in the direction of what jobs we want.



Ive though long and hard, and I want to be an afternoon pediatrician/doctor for teenagers.



Unless we cant afford it and I have to work for Intel for the rest of my life.



Oh god, that sounds so boring.



And ha ha, I could help people like Brittany.









Your lord and master,
Lisa
 
94.7 KNRK
02.26.05 (10:19 pm)   [edit]
Today's Song-Talk Radio by Crosstide..

Yeah see, I knew they exsisted, I knew it. Course, the internet didnt know it.


Right, while at Chris' for the I believe 6th time, we listened to 94.7 which I almost gave up on, but today it was cool. Theyve gotten better. I liked it when all the ads on it were "call us at the 94.7 hotline to tell us how we're doing and how the new us is going" and they played songs Ive never heard and totally kicked. I love indie music.

And thank you Chris, Sven and Val-James and I arent having sex anytime soon.
Actually, Im not doing that for another 4 years.

But, I love lying next to him.
He's like a magical shield right next to me and glowing with a certain something.
I dunno, imagine a white room like on tv with billowy cloth blinds and your lying there half asleep on a white bed with two puffy pillows. And the sun is coming up. And you




Dear god, I sound like an ass. A crack smoking ass.





Yeah, well, after everyone left and it was only Chris and Val and me again, we told him a story. He told us one even though I dont remember it.
Why is it that guys have it so much easier?
I mean, if I couldnt feel the way Im feeling now, that would be just peachy.








Your lord and master,
Lisa
 
Bright Eyes
02.25.05 (9:48 pm)   [edit]
Todays Song-Such Great Heights by The Postal Service

Ive found a new way to listen to songs, myspace.com
Its sweet.

Fa la la la.


Alright, something today that broke my soul...

We had a bus driver sub today and she made me put my theme park group's board right behind her. Because all I could think about is that annoying 6th grader who called me ugly and sleeping, I walked past it when getting off the bus. I walk home, happy, and Calvin turns around and I get annoyed. "What the hell does he want?" Right, so he asks me, "what about your board?" I yell OH FUCKING SHIT!! And throw my stuff onto some guy's front lawn, turned on the corner, run down the hill in the middle of the street and saw the bus turning and I try to scream but theres no sound. I collapse in front of some other guy's house and sit there with my head on my knees. Leeda walks down the hill and stays with me for a minute. I continue to sit there for like 6 six minutes crying a little. Then I march back to my house. Megan comes out and tells me to call the school to get the number to call the bus. So I do that after I cry again upstairs. I called them, they messaged the damn retard of a bus driver about a poster board..she doesnt know about it. I say ITS RIGHT BEHIND HER!! And the lady tells the bus driver that and she goes "oh yeah ok, whatever". I nearly yell FUCK THAT! into the phone but didnt since its mean and my mom was right behind me. The lady tells me that I can have it back on Monday. Monday. Presentations, I cry again upstairs. Then at 5, I call back because I could just drive to the damn bus place and get the board back. I talk to five different people until I got the address of the place. I drive there with my pissed off mom because I didnt tell her anything, and when I get out of the car, this lady walks out of the building..with a poster board. I run up, she asks "is this what youve been asking for?" and I squeal "YES!" And tell her I love her.

Not that Im crazy or anything, its perfectly normal to love good sweet hearted random people.


God, Ive never loved a project so much in my life. But! Thats why I dont offer to bring big important stuff home!!



Right, so the 6th grader...
James and I were helping Ms. Lissy with correcting stuff and spliting logic games papers for her and Ms. VB. And for 6th period, this slutty chick is really slutty...I dont even want to talk about it. And then the annoying 6th grader who rides my bus comes for 7th period, he sits right next to me facing James. He tries to talk to us, we correct papers. James talks to him when he's done, I retorted several times. And when I finish and see Sven go through Ms. Lissy's cabinet for food, I follow. But, right before that..the 6th grader asks James if he has a girlfriend. I look at James interested, and the 6th grader doesnt (I took five times to write that word..Ive been typing dies instead of doesnt...) give James enough time to answer and goes "I bet you dont." and James goes yeah huh, and I go ITS ME! And the little kid doesnt hear me and says "I bet my girlfriend is better looking than yours." Or something to that..anyway. I almost smacked that son of a bitch. Instead, I walked away, got candy and made sure he could see it go into my mouth and not his. And I left, Ms. Lissy said "say goodbye!" and I say bye to them and go HIS GIRLFRIEND IS SUPER HOT!!

Way to be my "knight in shining armor" James. Defending me, man..
Course, "its the 21st century"-Ms. Mullins


Because we had absolutely nothign to do for twenty minutes, Val, James and I walked around the building. I love walks around the building, they're so great. You can just walk outside in the sun with close people talking about nothing. Seriously, nothing. Nothing to talk about, nothing to say. Well..I could have talked about this one thing, but I would rather sit down than walk to talk about it...

Sometimes, its like Im a different person to people. Or thats the vibe I get from them.



....
Oy, we finally finished theme park.
We're going 2nd for presentations.
We're gonna knock down drag out everyone.
Plus, we have our secret business sneaky trick thing. So professional.

But, I love theme park. I could do it all over again..in a week.
I need some rest.

But, I like this much more than our regular schedule. So much more.

Theme park has given me a reason to go to school, whereas, before theme park didnt.
I got sick during theme park and my parents wanted me to go to the doctor's but did I?! NO! Because of theme park! No way was I missing it!

Im going to be sad when I have to say good bye to theme park and my group.



And stressed out about my future high school decisions.
God, Im going to plan out my whole four years on Sunday.
I should take Food and Child Care Intro, I, II, and III. And take Health during the summer.
Neh, screw the choices. There are so many to choose its driving me insane.
And I want to do photography. Black and white pictures are the coolest.
Thank god I only have to do gym for two years though.
Im gonna be so fluent in french. Cant beat it...Actually someone with their own tutor probably could *cough*


Im gonna stop and actually talk to Tyler.







Your lord and master,
Lisa
 
Nothing
02.21.05 (7:52 pm)   [edit]
Today's Song-The Indian song thats playing and my baby cousin is dancing to.

If she grows up and breaks my heart, Im gonna be a sad person.

This double or nothing is killing me.


James, this is what I would have said today if you didnt say "nothing".
-Cute haircut, too bad you cut a little too much hair off, I really like your really soft and curly hair.
-Ha, Im lying down on your bed *funny look on my face*
-I love ya *when I was leaving*


But you know, Im not cracking.
Nothing is nothing.
Give me the twenty love.

Ahhhhh but I really really want a kiss.



I dunno what Val's sad about, she's got the diagram.
I dont have the manual.

Why couldnt I have the diagram, it would have been so much easier than this crap.

NOW WHERE IS MY COMPUTER GENIUS BROTHER WHO NEEDS TO FIX OUR PRINTER?!


Luke is such a cwute doggy. He reminds me of Hobie.


You know what? I think Ill make all of you guys suffer and write a whole summary of what has happened since the 2nd.

Theme park started.
I like being in Mr. Doyle's classroom the most.
The map is my work of art. And Sven's...
Leslie's birthday party of pirates was a blast. IGNITE!
I got horribly sick. And sorta suffering the aftermath of The Cold/A Sinus Problem.
I went over to Chris' 4 times and I love his house and family.
My computer broke down and I lost all of my files and had to wait until today for my brother to fix it so now I can finally go on sites.
I still cant print..yet.
I went to my cousin's birthday party and they had a pinata and since I was the smartest one there, I got the most candy because I knew where to hit.

And, Valentines day....
I gave James something he could eat (a PB&J heart shaped sandwich and apple juice in a glass bottle so it looked like alcohol) and something he couldnt eat due to lent (a heart shaped box of Hershey's kisses). Also, a really long card and a really long valogram.
I got The Little Book of Love, a little heart shaped box of Godiva chocolates (so good), a sweet card and a bouquet valogram from him.
I was like melting that day. Truly melting.
We kissed like heh heh four times that day.

Some of you guys would be like dude, thats not a lot.
But I dont care.

Alright Tyler? so what if its been over 100 days!
So what?!







Your lord and master,
Lisa

Sorry for being "sappy" again Mister or Madam.
 
OH ALL THINGS HOLY!!
02.20.05 (6:41 pm)   [edit]

Todays Song-Dear god, I wanted to post soo many songs...I guess I have to pick one
I CANT REMEMBER THE FRIGGING NAME!!!
Its by dashboard confessional, he talks about the girl, and I love the song, and I believe its number 8, all I know is that its before She's Beautiful which is such a good song.


OH SWEET JESUS THE FRIGGIN INTERNET!!


Im at my cousins using their computer and they all left me alone in their tiny office and it feels so great, I love the internet.


I love technology, but I love you more, I STILL love technology though....


AND AND I FINALLY GOT MY BIBLIOGRAPHY SITES!!  Except for Val's stuff about state taxes BUT I DONT CARE!!


Its a shame that I cant use the internet at my house.


Oh yeah, our computer has a funny virus and it completely erased all of my files and wont let me use the internet unless it has basic html, and and and Ive had to read sources of sites just to read some stuff like Vals blog.


Yes, I can read some html and I thank neopets.


Yeah so I wont be able to use the internet or update this thing for like ever because my brother wont come up from Eugene.


Its only like a day thing..sorta.


My cousin Matthew says...no no, dont write me, dont.  Hey. *runs away*


Tee hee.  I bet he thinks the government can read this.


Oh, what to say, what to say...


 


I love theme park.  And then I hate it.
I love it that Ive gotten so much closer to James.  And Val, Chris and Sven.
I hate the work.
I love going over to Chris' house every weekend.
I hate the sleepless nights.
I love the excitement.  I hardly fall asleep in school now.
I hate not having a computer to do my stuff on.
I love how Im finally being challenged a little.
And I just love the people.  Im gonna be sad to leave my group.


Heey my cousin Amanda says...Ok, no, Im not posting what she just said....
"Hello"
^^Well, thats the clean version ^^


SCREW OFF CALVIN!!


Calvin does this when near girls...:oops:


 


This is what my two cousins look like..well, not shocked, they just have glasses...:shock:


 


Im out, theyre all reading everything Im writing.


 


 


Your lord and master,
Lisa

 
A New Discovery
02.02.05 (4:24 pm)   [edit]

Today's Song-Sympathy by Goo Goo Dolls


Ive made another discovery of myself.
When truly pissed, I get tired.
So, I am a major pissy person.


Im pissed right now actually.



Jon was principal of the day today.  I dunno how he did it, but he did it.  It must have been boring, but great at the same time.


L.Arts-Read and pretended I wasnt at school
Algebra-Froze my arms off.
Lunch-I should have stayed in with Leslie.  That way, I could have been Ms. Mullins instead of Tyler.  Like "so, are you Mr. Mullins now?" "WHAT!"
CIM-Ha ha, Tyler and I ran around the school asking people our question thing.  We did it so fast too, we did three whole classes.  Oh! Erik's mom would rather die than make a clone of herself! AND MS. HAY-ROE SAID HELL NO!!!  It was so fucking funny, I was dying and Ty was red as hell and we ran for it.  No offense to the spanish class, but you guys sucked at being questioned.
PE-Danced and danced and if the guys could dance, today would have been the best dance session all week.
Science-You think what you goddamn think.
S.S.-Tired..which equals pissed.  I didnt do anything major, just wished for time to fly by so I could go home.



Why do some of my friends think that I dont care?  I do, so much.  I scored high on the obsessive compulsive section of that one test.  I go crazy thinking about stuff.  If I did something that happened today happened to one of them my head would be chopped off right now.  I let them have their fun.  I wish it was summer.  And I could wear shorts, and run to my cousin's house everyday.  Or sit there and read and not have a care in the world because Im isolated from everyone.


And god, dont some of you guys get it?  Im a pathological liar.  If something was wrong, I lie.  If I didnt do something, I lie.  If what Im doing is bad, I lie.  This whole week was filled with lies!


Lies, lies, lies.  What I could have told some of you could be, or, most likely are lies.


Why would I ever tell the truth?


And, for the damn record, you guys can call me.  Its just that Ive been so pissy that I dont bother even looking at the phone when it rings.
Id get questioned by my parents but I dont give a shit.  I didnt in 4th grade, I didnt in 5th grade, and I certainly dont give right now.


I remember 4th grade, the phone was my friend.


Now, I wanna smash it just like I smashed that one tangerine.  Except maybe with a hammer instead of a bottle.


 


Billy's in 8th grade.  That makes it nice.  He passed me today but I couldnt muster enough energy to ask him a question.


The only time this whole year so far Ive ever been ok or more than ok is during Algebra and CIM.  I never feel bad in those classes.  Ive never felt anything other than happiness in those classes actually.


 


 


 


Your lord and master,
Lisa

 
Tell Me About Your Death
02.01.05 (9:25 pm)   [edit]

Todays Song-Shut Up by Simple Plan


Yes, Simple Plan...even though some of their songs suck major.


Calvin is currently reading what Im typing and smiling...not good.  CALVIN BACK OFF!!


God, today was screwed.


Before the assembly-I read Boki's death and Jared and I hid Tyler's  binder and blamed it on Jacob so he ran around Mr. Doyle's room chasing Jacob with a chair, it was hilarious.
Assembly-I wanted to go to sleep.  I didnt talk much because I was so damn tired.
L. Arts-Watched Napoleon Dynamite
Algebra-Froze, once again.  But! because Megan gave me that lovely tip of putting books on the vents, it warmed like three degrees.  And, and, sometime I like spaced out for five minutes and I told Leslie and Mr. Doyle heard and after class he asked me if I wanted this shock thing on my ear so I pay attention during class and something about taking out every third or forth word so theyre less words..?
Lunch-I got bored, followed Tyler and Jon back to the lockers and Jon told me a lovely story about his life and Tyler kept on nudging to Jon away from me.  And Ms. Mullins looked at us funny.
CIM-Said the day sucked and everyone agreed.  I helped on the Death Book


WHICH EVERYONE SHOULD CONTRIBUTE TO!!


PE-If we shot away two and got two others it might have been better.  At least I danced with guys who were my friends.
Science-I can take out the primary color stuff!!  And I am special for sitting in the special chair.
S.S.-I sat by myself on  the comfy chairs away from everyone.  Myself.  Away from everyone.  At least I got stuff done.  Quite a bit actually.  All I need to do is read a little more.


When I got off the bus and walked home, I saw "Billy" again.  I would have asked him another question but I didnt want to yell across the street so Sean and Mac could hear.  Plus, Leeda wasnt there with me.


Billy, has a Bob Marley shirt.  And Billy, seems like a rocker.  And Billy, better not be a stoner or I'll find his house and whoop him upside down.


 


Righto, well, me and Tyler (no surprise there) are making a book (a book! us, the lazy illiterates!) about our deaths.  Well, ours are included, but people give us how theyre gonna die and and its so cool.  You write about how you die, we dont care how crazy or how boring just as long as you dont copy someone's idea and we take it.  Im gonna type it all when it's done.  And I won't change a word.


 


 


 


 


Your lord and master,
Lisa


Huh! Huh! I wonder who's missing from this post!!  Huh!

 





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