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| 06.28.05 (1:32 pm) [edit] |
Todays Song-Fitter Happier by Radiohead
Fitter, happier, more productive,
Comfortable,
Not drinking too much,
Regular exercise at the gym (3 days a week),
Getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries,
At ease.
Eating well (no more microwave dinners and saturated fats),
A patient better driver,
A safer car (baby smiling in back seat),
Sleeping well (no bad dreams),
No paranoia,
Careful to all animals (never washing spiders down the plughole),
Keep in contact with old friends (enjoy a drink now and then),
Will frequently check credit at (moral) bank (hole in the wall).
Favors for favors,
Fond but not in love,
Charity standing orders,
On Sundays ring road supermarket (no killing moths or putting boiling water on the ants),
Car wash (also on Sundays).
No longer afraid of the dark or midday shadows
Nothing so ridiculously teenage and desperate,
Nothing so childish - at a better pace,
Slower and more calculated,
No chance of escape.
Now self-employed,
Concerned (but powerless),
An empowered and informed member of society (pragmatism not idealism),
Will not cry in public,
Less chance of illness.
Tires that grip in the wet (shot of baby strapped in back seat),
A good memory,
Still cries at a good film,
Still kisses with saliva.
No longer empty and frantic like a cat tied to a stick,
That's driven into frozen winter shit
(The ability to laugh at weakness).
Calm,
Fitter,
Healthier and more productive.
(A pig in a cage on antibiotics).
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Its cooler when you hear it..its a robotic voice.
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So what has Lisa been up to this summer?
-Nothing.
Yesterday was an exciting day for me...I woke up at 1, finished two books, cleaned out my drawers, organized all of my clothes, watched three shows of a new anime that I now like and made my own dinner (tuna and unriped mango strips sandwich with turkey slices and chips on the side - ooooh man) and went to bed two hours early (11:30).
Today will be more relaxed..Im gonna not bother moving around and just work on this icon Ive been working on the past three days.
Yup.
SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!!!
Shit, I AM SO FUCKING BORED!
Someone come to my door with two lawn chairs! And maybe raincoats or parkas.
Or, or, go to the movies!
Course, I dont want to spend 6 dollars on some worthless film..but still.
TAKE ME TO MICHAELS!
TAKE ME ON A FIELD TRIP TO THE PORTLAND ART MUSEUM FOR LIKE 5 OR MORE HOURS!!!
Wow..this Saturday, I really want to go to Saturday market and then to the museum.
I really really want to see this John Sargent exhibit.
So like, I have seven radiohead albums.
And Ive memorized three of them.
I need someone to seriously save me.
Dying..
from..
boredom...
or maybe just really hungry since Ive only had a bowl of Trix in the last 17 hours.
Soooo
lazy...
cant..
walk...
30 feet..
Where the hell is Calvin?!
I WANT PIZZA!
I WANT TO TALK TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD!
Last time I talked to someone not family face-to-face was errr, that one weekend too long ago when I bumped into someone at the store and said "Sorry"
Yup.
Your dead lord and master,
Lisa
Wow..I miss those people who talked to me and werent asian...
Like my friends!
AND JAMES! Crap..I really really miss him.
I wonder what he's doing, or is still in the Beaverton area.
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| What Lisa Would Like.. |
| 06.23.05 (10:02 pm) [edit] |
Todays Song-Am I Missing by Dashboard Confessional
..to say on the first day of school if a teacher asked me for information about myself-
Hi, Im Lisa Chau. I play hockey and I will do track. Ive taken the SATs twice. I like indie and alternative music. Im allergic to the outdoors, nuts, yellow/orange fruits and pet dander.
(..Ill turn 15 on November 30th and Im already in love.)
And I want to say that in front of my new peers, I want them be in awe.
I want the people who went to Meadow but didnt know me so well to want to know me.
I want the Stroller people who went to Bethany to drop their jaws.
I want to grab hold of my new start and make me someone.
But...right now in the present and, I sorta want to kick some asses.
And get away from my family.
Seriously, if I already know Im fat, they dont need to tell me everyday.
Its almost enough to make me anorexic AND bulimic how they talk about my body so much.
"Youre fat enough, skipping one meal wont kill you"
"Something about a big head in cambodian"
"Fat, fat, fat, did you know youre fat?"
"Exercise more!!!!!!!!"
Exercise my ass.
"Your huge butt"
I havent had real face-to-face contact with the outside world (someone not in my family) since...waving hello to Rachel at fred meyers on the 16th.
And its the 24th.
I think I might die.
Become mute, stop breathing, have my vision get even more blurred and then just have some random spaz attack and then die.
Arrr, *whine, whine whine*
Your dead lord and master,
Lisa
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| 06.21.05 (7:09 pm) [edit] |
Todays Song-Something by Coldplay, pick a song.
We are all horribly
Overdramatic,
Whiny,
Young,
Immature,
And just freaking stupid.
I cant believe myself.
I knew I was whiny but holy shit!
Arr, whatever.
Your lord and master,
Lisa
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| 06.18.05 (3:55 pm) [edit] |
This week's song-The Last Song by the All-American Rejects
This week went by fast.
And unexpected.
Im sorta expecting to go back to school on Monday.
Tuesday was better than Monday.
Wednesday was the last day I ever ran around the school with Jared, Tyler and Jon. And Dennis. And Ms. VB's mom finally gave us her famous pumpkin pie.
Thursday was the last real school day.
L. Arts-Freaked about my paper.
Algebra-Signed yearbooks and worked on my CIM Prep essay.
Lunch-Ms. Mullins room. Wedding party thing. Free candy and free pop. Food from Tyler. Jon and him stole so many hohos. So many people in that room. Jon and Ben wed Mindy and Jonathan..first Jon asked Mindy to marry him though, lol. He had a suit on too, lol.
SSR-Oh god..I dont remember. I think I hung out of Ty's table.
CIM-Went outside to read. Finished essay and turned it in.
Gym-On the bleachers..hung out with Ty and Val and Michael and Natalie and Aaron.
Science-The special kiddies had a graduation party and we attended it. Got cake!
S.S.-Rest of Rudy.
James gave me another cd.
I gave him all of mine to copy.
Songs on CD..
01) Your Song
02) Hand Me Down
03) Breathe
04) You're Still the One
05) Mexico
06) Come Away With Me
07) Hands Down
08) All I Ask Of You
09) Stand By Me
10) Take My Breath Away
11) Unchained Melody
12) The Freshman
13) If I Aint Got You
14) Rocket Man
Thursday..the last day of school.
I got 40 extra minutes of sleeping so I woke up at 7:40. I debated about bringing things to school like my camera but just brought James' sweatshirt, my yearbook and two pens. Rode the bus to school, was with Natalie outside I believe. Pictures..Nat took one of my locker. Homeroom, played "poker" and "blackjack" with Tim, Michael, Jon, Aaron, Jeff C, Saywer A and Ty watched. Tim cant deal for crap. I wrote a meaningful thing in Jon's yearbook and Ty's. Ill miss them. I wish I did bring my camera so I could have taken a picture of them. Went to the assembly, sat next to Nataly and Ms. Mullins-Michael, Natalie, Sven and Chris K behind me. I watched James, Mattie, Shayla and Leslie sing the national anthem in amazement. They were better than the choir people. Waay better than a lot of different people who've sung it. Watched a slideshow of us 8th graders, then the 7th graders and then the 6th graders. A little game by the leadership people. Barbeque, so much smoke. Cheeseburger, chips, mountain dew, sierra mist and pepsi...damn my friends-sat next to James, Ty, Val, Jon, Leslie, Michael and Natalie. James had Mountain Dew, his balls were shrinking, lol! Then Ty and Jared dumped their crap with me so I carried it around for like twenty minutes. Signed yearbooks, took pictures. WOOTANG! Walked around with James. Pathetic carnival games. Walked around and talked. Snow cones. More games. Dunk tank. More talking and hanging out. Rain. Sun. Little incident with Ty and Val about Nikii. Dunk tank. Stole Ty's cell phone in gym. Hung out in gym. Was with Nataly at the end of the day and we went to go get our little prizes from the tickets. She got candy and I got a smiley face man (Thank you James). Went back to the halls...took a pixie stick from Calvin who was very loaded. Went into Ms. VB's room, hung out with Nataly and James. Went to C Hall and gave Devon and Ms. Palmer their yearbooks. Hugged Ms. Mittens goodbye and said good-bye to the kiddies. Went back to B Hall. First person I hugged had to be Michael who Nataly pushed me into. Got my plaster hand and Boki's. Hugged Jared, Tyler, Jon (after days of punching him since he told me that we should wait for the last day of school to hug each other), Nataly, Rachel, Shayla, Leslie, Natalie, Val, and others. James held me. Held..sounds like Im a baby. It was nice. Hugged more people. Refused to cry and I didnt. Oh god was it hard though. Goodbyes to Ms. Mullins and Val and Tyler and Jon adn Nataly and Jared. Walked down those halls one last time with James. Hugged Ms. VB and told her that she was the BEST SCIENCE TEACHER I EVER HAD and she told me I was one of the Best Students She's Ever Had and she hugged me tight. Oh, also hugged Ms. Bridenbraugh and she said I was so sweet. Told Mr. D about fishing at the Columbia Gorge to fish for shed and then hugged him. The buses started. I grabbed James' hand and led him to between the buses since there were so many teachers next to the halls and he told me that we should go there. My last kiss with him for a very long time. I dunno if we kissed long enough to have it be considered "making out" but Tyler cant call me prude anymore ha ha. James surprised me with something, and I surprised him back. I feel so empty now. That kiss had to be one of the best kisses Ive ever gotten from him. Hmm..that kiss, then the 2nd celebration kiss and then the first kiss...yeah, best kiss ever. I hope that 6th grader who always has a purse with her liked it too...and those other 6th graders who popped their heads out of the bus windows to watch us. Weirdos. Walked to my bus..asked Jon if he wanted his last hug to be Mattie or me and he said "Mattie but Ill be fine with you" Hugged him, hugged a sobbing Mattie and ran away. I then started crying. Darn you Mattie! I found my bus, got on it, cried some more, scared the 7th graders since I couldnt breathe and was crying. The bus was begining to move and I saw Jon out the window..I got into Leeda's seat, yelled JON SCOTT four times and he came over and I reached my hand out to him adn he reached his to mine. I stopped crying then and organized my crap that I threw down onto my seat. Theme park map, two student of the month awards, notebook, cd case, yearbook, smiley face man with James' intitials on his feet, Jared's sharpie, my pen, my plaster hand, Boki's plaster hand and laffy taffy from my very kind bus driver named Fran. Im amazingly glad to never ride a bus ever again though. Got off the bus with Leeda and a crying Megan. Gave Megan Boki's hand. Home.
Even after writing the day down, I dont think it truly explains the day.
I went to Fred Meyers after and saw Rachel there!! My brother came home and will be home for a while. He finished getting his bachelor's degree at U of O now he's taking a year off before going to graduate school to get his Ph. D on mathematics. Dr. So...ha!!
First day of summer...woke up at 11, went to Costco, a restaurant to celebrate me graduating and because right after I woke up we had to go to Costco and I didnt eat breakfast. Went to a Vietnamese store adn then home. Went to the library, now Im here.
Tyler said "I won't miss you; you know Ill see you next (school) year."
How true. Even he knows it. Him, Tyler James Bednarz AKA the "worthless dumbass".
I really hope the other Sunset people know it too.
Ill miss you guys. Seriously.
I already miss James enough to make me sick.
And he misses me.
God..I want another surprise.
If possible..after the surprises, he got even more crazier about me.
Same here.
JAMES HENLEY WYKOWSKI! I LOVE YOU!
Waiting - day to day it goes through,
My lips - are sealed for him.
My tongue is
Tied to - a dream of being with you,
To settle for less - is not what I prefer.
Summer time - the nights are so long.
(My Paper Heart)
I love all you guys..next year's seriously gotta kick ass.
Your lord and master,
Lisa
The Westview High School Freshman.
Who's secretly dying of missing people and boredom.
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| Driven Crazy |
| 06.13.05 (9:00 pm) [edit] |
Todays Other Song-I dunno, pick a song by Puddle of Mudd.
Now, you guys suck.
Im forced to listen to headbanger stuff since I feel like banging my head against something.
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No..its Part of my Past by Daphne Loves Derby.
I won't forget the times that we had
So please don't be a part of my past
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YOU GUYS SERIOUSLY SUCK!
EVERY ONE OF YOU!!
It hurt to see my locker empty.
For the past ever, Im used to seeing Aaron's backpack on the bottom of the locker covering a nice third of the whole thing. Im used to seeing papers jammed at the bottom under the backpack which keeps it in the locker. Im used to seeing his with like four books in his shelf while I have six and notebooks. The graffiti on the locker door. Random shit on the locker door. Something wet in Aaron's territory. My books in a mess.
Im used to seeing a guy locker instead of a guy/girl locker.
But, as I cleared every single thing out of my locker, I felt like crying.
This is Aaron's job, he was supposed to be with me.
But he wasnt.
And he wont be for the next four years.
Our locker is empty.
Because of me.
I returned his books, took his cups home, and threw away the rock on his shelf that has been *wet* for the past four days.
I closed the locker angrily.
But then I turned the knob...16-2-40
Opened the door, pulling the pully thing twice as I usually do.
Said "this is for Aaron" and hugged the locker door.
James watched me.
IM NOT EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED TO MY LOCKER!!
IM EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED TO THE PEOPLE!!
Aaron...my first official guy friend, since in 6th grade he turned in his seat and asked "will you be my friend?!" in his squirrely voice. I said "Yeah...sure!"
He asked me to be his locker partner last year and I asked him to be mine this year.
And we should be locker partners forever, but GODDAMN SUNSET AND WESTVIEW!!
This is what I want.
I dont want A best friend.
After I lost seven of those, Im tired of it.
I want a group of best girl friends, a group of best guy friends, special friends who'll always be in my heart, regular girl friends, regular guy friends, and friends who arent near me but truly are and people who are just those people who I could get to know better but dont.
And, I have that.
But those groups are twisting and turning and destroying themselves like GI Joe action figures.
A group of them are on the bed, on the floor, on the desk, on the other side of the floor, closet, chair...and they all want to kill each other.
I just want my *group* of uber good best friends.
I thought I had it covered.
Natalie and I will stay best friends for like ever because Im steady headed and I need a person like her.
Mattie and I will be uber nice and call each other once a year the least.
Val and I will be an awesome girl duo forever. We'll be the brains of every class we're in. And she'll be in my cell for ever.
Nataly and I will go to Costco together, have lunch together, talk to each other through AIM and email.
Leslie and I will be girly and giggle through everything.
Katie will be my wall forever, from 1st grade to ever. Ill be over at her house, saving her.
Ellen and I will always talk about music and be like a couple of girl scouts at a slumberparty, lol.
Yoshie will be my hot Japanese friend forever.
James will be someone who I will be in love with forever and ever and insult others with.
Tyler will still think Im the love of his life and Im totally perfect for him if he likes it or not. Lol, no. Im on his cell, he'll be on my cell. I'll continue to rule his life, he'll continue to brighten mine.
Jared will always give me that smile and we'll talk about nerdy stuff like computers.
Boki will talk to me forever through AIM and mail.
Aaron, will always be my soul-lockerpartner. And he'll aways be allowed to touch my boobs..until he becomes way straight and I want to beat his head.
Itll be that way.
Itll be better than that.
Itll be like Ms. Mullin's friendships.
We'll all know each others cell phone numbers
We'll all eat lunch together.
We'll all get drinks.
We'll all party.
We'll all go paint pots every second sunday of every month.
Hell, itll be like my brother's friendships.
We'll continue to all know each other and never say we lost track of our friendships.
Because without you guys, Id be on that couch next to this computer desk, reading.
Reading about friendships instead of experiencing them.
You guys, and I mean plural, talk about losing each other and friendships dying.
That will not be my case.
Ill always be your friend.
Because,
I love you guys.
Even the people who I "hate".
Seriously.
Your lord and master,
Lisa
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| Summer Plans |
| 06.13.05 (5:37 pm) [edit] |
Todays Song-Twisted Logic by Coldplay
"Are there any cds you dont own?!"
-Nope.
"Do you own Dave Matthews Band cds?!"
-All of them.
Poof, I own the world.
As I did my l. arts paper at like twelve last night, I thought about having my own site dedicated to bands and artists so I could help other people who were researching about a band.
Because, like, we dont want the UK to beat our asses at that.
"How is your french toast"
-Smelly and ungreatful but this American toast is great!
Man, I feel like Im going to winter break instead of summer break.
I cant grasp the thought of going to Westview..where I dont want to go.
I cant grasp the thought of not seeing Tyler, Nataly, Boki, Aaron, Karen, Tish, Megan G, Chris T and others.
I cant grasp the thought of going to Cambodia and staying for a whole month.
Ill be back four days before school begin...Cambodia is fifteen hours ahead of Oregon, thats like hell.
I cant even grasp the fact that Im fourteen.
In less than six months Ill turn fifteen.
Able to learn how to drive.
A year away from being able to get a job.
Two years away from major SAT studying, SAT II, looking for colleges, applying for them.
Three years from graduating, everything that the colleges demand, applying for college, legally being an adult.
Four years from being in college.
Six years from being able to drink.
I want to stay 12, forever.
Back when innocence was with everyone, guys were guys, girls were turning girly, swearing wasnt trashy just something preteens used to rebel, clothes didnt matter and you could be uber smart.
During the summer I will...
Learn how to cook.
Learn more Khmer.
Learn how to do that knitting but not really knitting thing.
Run to the end of arbor ridge within three minutes.
Be able to sit-up 45 in a minute like before.
Fix my damn cd burner.
Do a model of my dream room.
Wake up early.
Fold faster.
Read over 40 books. Preferrably 50. Or over 80 to beat last year's record.
Clean the house.
Steal a driver's manual.
And soooo much more!
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Today-
L. Arts-Ok
Algebra-Ok..dont get a lot of stuff I learned in the past. Got reminded Leslie was twitchy when it comes to math she doesnt understand.
Lunch-Muffin time. Awesome. Tyler and Jon-Ill miss them.
SSR-Read for a couple of minutes, Tyler called me over to do something to his yearbook stayed there. He let me go first through the door because Im a lady. Lol. I love that.
Then..someone put a piece of dirty scotch tape on my heart. Nothing big, but bad.
CIM-Good, I did origami.
Gym-Slept.
Science-Not good. I still love the movie though.
S.S.-Arrr.
James was slightly cute behavior-wise.
But whatever.
Lisa needs her sleep and to be left alone when she really wants the opposite yet no one does that well enough.
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Your lord and master,
Lisa
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| 06.10.05 (10:21 pm) [edit] |
Todays song-Hand Me Down by Matchbox Twenty
Not Sorry 2001 by Ruben Studdard or whatever.
Not that song by Jessica Simpson.
Not that other song, that last song.
See, I knew after Sorry 2001 theyd put a decent song, but no..my first half dance with James was Sorry 2001.
Oh well, I like his neck.
A lot.
The smell, the feel, the protection.
Man, tonight, was pretty nifty.
Yeah, ok, since my night didnt end until 12:30 and I didnt have time to finish, here it is, the second time. Stupid power going off.
Im sorta tired about writing about it but in a year, I know Id like to read this post again.
So I rush to take a shower and blow dry my stupid hair. Since it was too puffy for one massive ponytail, I put it in pigtails. My mom was waiting outside when I got down and I got into the car and Leeda walks by. She gets in and we go. We're met with fire and Ms. Vanden Berg. Free admittion, you guys with the stickers lost four dollars. Talked to Heather and then went to enter my drawing slip and talked to Tyler and Jon. Talked to Rachel and Megan. James came looking uber hot. Screw Michael and Yohan and the Furbs. Walked around. Watched people sing karaoke, repeatedly told James, Val, Nataly and Leslie that they should sing since they sing a lot. They didnt, losers. Went to the West Gym. Mr. D was fantacinated with DDR. Um, walked to the front of the school then FIREALARM!! Hee hee, it was funny. I was worried about my cds burning...all 26 of em. That would have been hell. Mindy and Jonathan came! You could totally see his undershirt! Alarm went off again and the firetruck came, way to be fast man...you guys are like across the street. Got wallet from Heather to get my $5 gift card to Jamba Juice. Walked around with James. THEME PARK PICTURES!! Danced with James for three songs. Only one of them was to my liking. If I ever see Ruben Studdard, Im stuffing a Big Mac down his thoat so he can choke and die. If I ever see Jessica Simpson, Im cutting off her boobs with a small kiddy swiss army knife. Oh well, other than those sucky songs, it was um, amazing. James was really close. We talked during Sorry 2001 but then I gave up looking at him since it hurt and just put my head on his neck/shoulder. The song drowned out of my ears and my senses lost control. I could only feel my arms around his neck, his hands around my lower back, and our feet (his making cute twitchy movements sometimes). I could only smell him and not the sweaty cafeteria. Then ran away when they put horrid disco on. Dude, theres other way better 70s stuff. Talked to Tyler about dancing. Which reminds me, James told me to dance with him. Hell no. Then talked to James about alcohol. Got a drink.
Tyler: Lisa, root beer or alcohol?
Lisa: Alcohol (dumbass)!
Tyler to James: You got a good one!!
Lol. Then I signed Ty's yearbook.
Ty, Orangie, Number One, Shark AKA Tyler James Bednarz if you forget me Ill stalk you, I promise.
Oh, and thanks for loving me there in Target. I love the whole stare at Lisa and then walk quickly away thing.
Then another dance with James. It was like 9:50 and my Mother Senses were tingling so we went far away...to the prep area. Oh well, I couldnt see them, couldnt hear the awful song and was completely absorbed to James so its all good. Final kisses, got yearbook and cds, Calvin found me and I told him to go away and to not bring Mommy. Miss Mullins and Jonathan were there.
J-Man, look at them! They're like killing those monkeys, it looks just so wrong.
Mindy-*laughs*
James-I had one of those monkeys..but smaller.
Mindy to me-Gee Lisa! find out stuff like that about guys before you go out with them!!
Last kiss, went outside with Leeda and Mother and Calvin..heard Boki's name. Started looking for him, couldnt find him. Curse you Boki. Went into car, remembered wallet was in James' pants, lol. Went back, found Boki!! He was on the ground! I got a last hug from him! Actually..the only hug he's ever given me.
Man Bok, Im gonna miss you. You were a real pal in 6th grade. Too bad my lovely friends said I liked you and everyone thought that was true when it wasnt. Too bad our friendship died. You were just a wonderful guy friend who wrote on my legs, lol. I LOVE YOU BOK! Biz-oki. Honesty is the way to go with guys, thanks for telling me that. Thanks for telling me a lot of things. Dont you dare meet another asian named Lisa. And SEND ME THAT POSTCARD!!
God Boki, I love you.
Well-
So finally, after two awful celebrations (three to him I guess), we danced.
And I would really like to be in his arms again. It was like being on the Knauer guest bed all over again, but better.
Those pictures, I really want them. Theme park pictures, that one I took with Nataly and Leslie, Jon holding Tyler bridal style...god thats just awesome.
Which reminds me...there are spies everywhere. Where do people get those pictures?! On that one tv!
Then, after everything, I was on the computer talking to Sven, Val, Chris, Boki, and Tyler in a chatroom. I love chatroom moments like those. I wish I had saved it.
In a daze.
In love.
Need sleep since its 11:36.
Got X&Y by Coldplay at Target.
Bringing it to school on Monday.
Saw Tyler at Target with his sister who has very nice hair.
Thanks for the hello (not).
Your lord and master,
Lisa
"Im so glad youre not dramatic like those girls."
-Dramatic?
"Nevermind"
-Oh..man..Im so sad.
Someone please remind me that.
I like me better like that.
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| Oooh, What A Wonderful Monday |
| 06.06.05 (9:50 pm) [edit] |
Todays song-No Such Thing by John Mayer
Todays other song-Only Heart by JM also
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing
Aas the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
And you love like your hand's on the horn, baby
I adore you but there's a hole in the cup that should hold your love
(hold my love)
If you let me leave
I swear, I never will
Remember now you...
You've got my only heart
Yeah, you got my only heart
Yeah, you've got my only
Only heart
I dont think Ive ever put a John Mayer song as the song of the day, which surprises me since he's like the all time greatest musician ever (to me). Hes like nearly hot, awesome guitarist even though sometimes live he goes on forever and forever and has a majorly sexy voice.
Ive been in love with him since 6th grade, I memorized No Such Thing before I found out that he was the artist.
So, like today, was oh so very nice.
It was Natalie's and Megan Gould's birthday and Yoco came to visit!!
Today:
Before School-I talked to Ty and Jon about Star Wars and injuries, a preferrable way to start the day. Ty didnt break his arm and I told him to do, you know, if you jump off a roof in the rain three times, you should at least break your arm to humor me. Hes so worthless. Mattie gave me this awesome magnet.
L. Arts-Ms. Mullins finally let us do our art section of our project, my room and its furniture kicks ass.
Algebra-I think I learned something. I definitely did when Mr. D started doing that "if you have one popsicle plus another popsicle, you get two!!" He should apply that to math more often, I totally got that adding radicals thing.
Lunch-WEB pizza party, I had two slices and took more time than needed to eat it. You guys are losers for not folding up your pizzas like I did. James kept my hand warm. Leslie had a ladybug and freaked me out with the whole bug thing.
CIM-I read while Sawyer did a diagram of our zoo since it's his part of the project.
Gym-I was shooting hoops for like forty minutes alone. The basketball was so dirty, I got dirt all over my hands. But! I made like a third of my total shots!
Science-Jeff said my eyes were beautiful..only because he was being a slacker and didnt want to read and was sucking up to me. He should have rapped it, it would have been awesome. Did stuff with my fun sharpie.
S.S.-Best class of the day. I kept James' pocket open (velcro), I stole his SAVE DARFUR bracelet, he rested his sweet head on my shoulder and it all was uber nice. Then talked to Mr. D about Ms. Allen and skipping the whole Civil War unit (he said okay!!). Also told him that I went out with Jon, bet he was surprised.
After school-DUDE! YOCO WAS HERE! LIKE PHYSICALLY! IN FRONT OF OUR EYES! SHIT WE ALL SCREAMED! I LOVE THAT HOT JAPANESE LADY SO MUCH!! Lol. Seriously though, she was looking good.
And...Im like in a daze.
Fa la la la..
Its a shame itll end in a week and a half.
It was just getting better.
Your lord and master,
Lisa
I love James.
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| 06.04.05 (9:44 pm) [edit] |
Todays song-Breathing by Yellowcard
Today was uber fun.
First, slept until like 12:30, finished my book, went downstairs to eat rice (crap) and then wrapped Natalie's gift, ran around, went to Natalie's house.
I was John Mayer.
In Lisa clothing because he has the same outfit as I do...
which is sorta scary and makes me manly.
And then I wore James' dress shirt that I still have since I got all wet.
Smells just like him. Sniffff
Aw man, watching people play pool, eating Natalie's mom's HOMEMADE TACOS! Breakfast Club, water gun fights, running, candy, cake and presents...awesome.
Me-Arr, your like Calvin, Im sitting on here.
James-Are you calling me fat?!
Me-No James! You arent fat! Now eat up *put m&m in his mouth*
Teenymonkee (10:34:25 PM): we have to get all of us together for another water gun fight
HELL YEAH!!
God, Natalie and I and Chris for a short period of time were against Michael and James and it was awesome. We ran around the house and the neighborhood. We all got so wet. The guys won though...stupid man power. Or stupid man tactics. Michael aimed mostly at the crotch and upper back and James aimed at the face and ass. Both of them aimed at our chests too so that was nice. Nat and I had like soaking wet bras (turns you on doesnt it Reader?) and were hitting them, lol. *squish squish* Michael went out front and ran like half a mile away from the house and we all ganged up on him, until we found him on the front porch and then James started shooting at me. Nice. Nat changed shirts, James put another shirt on, I put on James' dress shirt on and Michael stayed with his lovely white shirt.
Too awesome.
Something not awesome though...
Natalie, James, Michael, Chris, Leslie and Nat's mom were around the pool table and I went outside and sat on the swing with a water gun. I shot the water into the air and since I was right behind them in the window, they saw the water and me but not the gun..so..right, Lisa has some magic "peeing" skillz.
Mattie-Teeth
Jon-School girls
Val-Hugs at the bottom of back
Leslie-None
Michael-Lesbians
James-None..
Natalie-Forearms, pain, indents near collar bone
And me-When thinking too hard, like thinking about a math problem, nerdy stuff..and eyes plus shape and lashes
Chris-Huh, I didnt get his
Seriously, one of the best parties Ive been to.
We just hanged out and it was once again, awesome.
Your lord and master,
Lisa
Mom-If this is your shirt then who's did you wear?!
Me-Um..Natalie's painting shirt.
Like Id tell the truth.
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| Mrr-rrruvmmmm |
| 06.03.05 (9:29 pm) [edit] |
Todays song-The District Sleeps Alone Tonight
This dinner isnt good.
I wish my family wasnt a group of fatasses so I could have a proper dinner, homemade restaurant styled noodles. This time it only lasted for a dinner and a linner.
Pretend homework, actually going to bed at 1, blurry vision, running around with Tyler, Jared and Jon in the mornings again.
What is Lisa doing?!
Learning real math...getting ready for summer...not sleeping enough...getting away from my friends and hanging out with them.
Ha ha, this time James isnt who Im running from.
Actually, before when I was running away, I didnt run from him. I ran from seeing him pay more attention to Natalie, Val giving sympathetic looks, my friends having their own weird circle that didnt include me.
Hum, maybe Im not running away from my friends this time.
I just want something happy to remember.
Like today, we went outside and then Tyler and Jared started chucking pinecones at Jon and like three at me and Jared sorta stopped and Jon got this giant weed "to beat the shit out of Tyler" and Jared and I watched them fight and collected pinecones to throw at them. There was this awesome pinecone war around the shed.
Some vintage stuff right there.
When I say run, I actually mean run. They run a lot. Today I hit my thigh on one of those stone things on the side of C Hall.
Yesterday, Jon and I just walked outside past the office. We found Tyler then a Jared. I learned about their starwars stuff and who has lightsabers. Man, if I knew Andrew had like seven, I would have played with them during theme park.
He has some that talks..thats just too awesome.
I need to make a shirt that says BEATS WORKIN'
..Or was it Aworkin'?
Today-
Before school-Gave James and Nataly fantas. Ran around with Ty, Jon and Jared.
L. Arts-Uber boring.
Algebra-Val and I lied to Mr. D, oh so very shocking. We went to go see Andrew but couldnt since they were busy laughing and stuff. Came back to him talking about the homework that I didnt get. Watched Nataly and Rachel play chess and "suicide chess" I was stacking chess pieces and my tallest one had four castles, a queen and a bishop it was pretty tall. Then I became Jared, the first real Jared since I was the first one to wear The Jacket, lol.
Lunch-Stayed in Ms. Mullins room. Decided to get a house with James like the one in the magazine. Id live outside if I had that house. People fought, I got candy that wasnt so great.
CIM-Good.
Gym-Better than yesterday.
Science-Very very nice. We went to Ms. Brook's room and I did a jigsaw with Ashley who told me her secret-she was hiding a tape of 101 Dalmations. Then we read from the book.
S.S.-Not so perky. Mr. D gives us like way too much freedom. Its a good thing Mr. Corey taught us stuff about the Civil War and I remember it.
After school-More yummy chocolate from Ms. Lissy, lol. I love her. Why couldnt she be one of our teachers for 6th grade? Even though she teaches math, she could have taught us science! I would have learned more with her, Ms. Johnson really hates me.
And then, I think, was the first time James ever said I love you to my face. He's said it millions of times on letters, aim, email that one phone conversation but I dont think ever to my face. I dont know, he probably has and I cant remember.
Its funny, Ive been wondering for a while if he's ever said I love you to my face before and he just did.
Except, I pictured me saying it back to him and giving him another kiss instead of right in front of my bus with my mouth full of chocolate. Mrr-rrruvmmmm was what I said.
Man, I should also make a EPISODE Y shirt to support these guys...
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:37:25 PM): we should have chris hit on her
Mono Elsea (10:37:33 PM): Princess Leia? Padme or whatever
Mono Elsea (10:37:38 PM): Whos Chris
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:37:39 PM): ok
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:37:43 PM): OUR OWN PLOT
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:37:44 PM): means
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:37:48 PM): our own characters
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:37:51 PM): our own storyline
Mono Elsea (10:38:00 PM): Aw, thats like no fun
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:38:09 PM): and princess leia is padme's daughter
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:38:13 PM): r u kidding that extra fun
Mono Elsea (10:38:59 PM): You should have Chris say "do you want to see my lightsaber" and make him raise his eyebrows suggestively
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:39:06 PM): lol
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:39:10 PM): that would be so funny
Mono Elsea (10:39:17 PM): That would
Mono Elsea (10:39:57 PM): And they could be like at a bar
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:40:00 PM): lol
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:40:01 PM): no bar
Mono Elsea (10:40:04 PM): Lol
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:40:09 PM): we can only work with my neighborhood as scenery
Mono Elsea (10:40:18 PM): Kitchen counter
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:40:19 PM): and we arent creating any scenery
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:40:27 PM): 1. too lazy 2. not enough time
Mono Elsea (10:40:46 PM): On the grass between trees then
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:40:54 PM): lol
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:40:58 PM): we'll get creating
tRaCy McGrAdY991 (10:41:00 PM): ****creative
Mono Elsea (10:41:05 PM): Lol
Lol.
Huh, as I wrote that stuff above, today didnt seem so bad.
Except washing my mom's car with stupid Calvin when I wanted to sleep since I went to sleep last night at like two.
Your lord and master,
Lisa
May the force be with you.
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Edit.
I hate this boy.
Hes so depressed and if I was right next to him Id kick the shit out of him.
But then theres this side of me who wants to give him a hug and let the silence talk.
Im sorry, but he doesnt deserve this.
Am I the only one who sees that?
I bet he hates me now.
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| Sucks |
| 06.01.05 (9:19 pm) [edit] |
Todays song-The Letter by Acceptance.
Props to Natalie for telling me that I might like this band even though she's said that before about other horrible bands that sucked ass.
*TOOL* *NINE INCH NAILS* *FALL OUT BOY*
Hum, I should listen to Rooney.
Recently downloaded cds...
Acceptance - Phantoms
Copeland - In Motion
Gatsbys American Dream - Ribbons & Sugar
Grease Soundtrack
Jimmy Eat World - Bleed American
Matchbox Twenty - Mad Season
Matchbox Twenty - More Than You Think You Are
Mest - Mest
The Postal Service - Give Up
Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
Most of them suck.
Who cant wait for July 16 to come around?
Lisa
Who just wants to hire Ozzy to bite some peoples heads off?
Lisa.
Lisa or Lily...and my parents picked Lisa. Sure Lily is like a friggin flower and it seems pretty stupid to call an asian Lily but Lily is a nice name. Also a very nice flower.
GODDAMN FLOWERS! THEY SUCK!
I dont know why the hell people garden. It hurts.
Like on Monday, I had to weed half of my backyard and thats pretty kill-me-now stuff.
Alright, people, I want to say right now, I dont take people away.
Absolute bullshit.
So the girlfriend's in fault of a changing guy?
Fuck no.
I dont try to change James at all, or do anything with him.
Its the same "shit theyre so stupid" and little obvious secrets from last year and since Ive ever known him.
And when I tell him to do stuff, its for my benefit.
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Today-
L.Arts-Sucked.
Math-Sucked.
Lunch-Stealthy. Absolute fun with James, Tyler and Jon.
CIM-Sucked.
Gym-Sucked more.
Science-Alright.
S.S.-Good.
So today mostly sucked.
Everything mostly sucks.
SINCE 1997 BABY!
Yep, in 2nd grade I learned the word Suck and knew that word would describe my life for the next couple of years.
As I look back, I was an abnormal child.
Playful at times but quiet and like right now most of the time.
Maybe its because of the super nice people in my life when I was young.
"Lisa, go away! I dont want you to hang around us"
"GO AWAY!"
-Kindergarten, recess
"But I wanted Chelsea to sit by me! She's so skinny! (And better than you!)"
-Kindergarten, bus ride from a field trip
"Go away, your weird, everyone lets go to the garage"
-1st grade, wonderful neighbors of mine who showed up while I was playing with Alex in his backyard.
"You have a huge nose like this girl!"
-Kindergarten, some asshole pointed out a ridiculous looking Chinese person on our People of Different Cultures poster
"Your skin's funny looking"
-Teacher, staff, screw them.
Whatever.
Stupid allergies.
Ive got skin allergies and thats why my skin sucks.
Also got a dermatologist, steroid cream and special pills.
Thats right.
Screw everyone who makes their simple life dramatic because its not a big deal.
Me? Dont care about "oh so terribly dramatic life of mine".
On some super random note...
Who's ever looked into the eyes of a true mentally ill aunt and got chills?
Leslie, I dont know if you know this but our moms' sister is sorta crazy.
Like the bad crazy, the kind of crazy that locks herself in the bathroom, turns off the light in fear of having cameras in them, falls asleep in the bathtub with water running adn then wrecks the bathroom floor and the ceiling of the living room.
The real kind of crazy too, she's been in four different freaking kinds of Homes.
And a real hospital during the 2004 presidential election.
Kind of crazy where the court wont let her life in a normal house with a normal family taking care of her since only specialists can take care of her.
Hum.
80 days for summer break.
10 days left after tomorrow.
Thats hell.
Today, I talked to Jon a lot and I realized Im gonna really miss him.
And Tyler. What shall I do in the mornings now?
Without them running around the halls, who am I to look out for?
Who will acknowledge me everytime I pass them in the halls?
Give me a nod? A funny looking smile that makes me wonder what theyre thinking? Raise their eyebrows?
Ill miss Tyler's face expressions and Jon's feeling-filled eyes.
Nataly's Natalyness, Boki's Bokness and Karen's wowness.
Aaron and everything he stands for..even his special scent.
Urgh.
Your lord and master,
Lisa
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