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| I like to procrastinate and wish |
| 08.30.06 (10:01 am) [edit] |
[I meant to post this on monday but didnt get to it]
Todays song-To Love Somebody by the Bee Gees
Cuz I didnt know that this song is by three British brothers
(Did anyone know that massachusetts, staying alive, and emotion is also by them?)
My dinner tonight (in order I consumed them..or will):
A small cup of milk
Two advils
A small cup of apple sauce
A mug of what was the contents of a minute maid tropical fruit punch pouch
What Ive ate before night:
Two advils
Key lime pie yogurt
Half a small bowl of sour cream and chedder chips
Three cups of water
Let me explain why I seem like an anorexic-
I got my gums sliced open and upper wisdom teeth pulled out yesterday.
By my super hot oral surgeon who I will no longer see anymore, since I no longer have stupid wisdom teeth for him to "deliver."
Teeth extractions are actually called deliveries.
[deliver looks like it should mean to de-liver someone]
Why didnt I get all four of my wisdom teeth pulled out in one day?
Cuz they didnt notice them until I got my lower wisdom teeth pulled out (the x-rays dont usually go that back far and was pretty hard to spot)
But its cool. I got to see my oral surgeon again and Ill probably lose more weight.
I need to lose some weight cuz I gained about 15 pounds since coming back from Cambodia.
And seeing as Ive only grown an inch, I really shouldnt have gained so much.
I blame it upon my slight depression, being starved while in Hell, and my acne meds that made me hungry.
To get my upper wisdom teeth out, my doctor had to dig into my skull which made a funny noise.
He said that it cracked like an eggshell and was soft.
I learned a lot from him.
Hes gonna be like a facial doctor/surgeon whatever.
First he had to get a dental degree before starting med school, which he will go to this sept.
And hes married. (which makes me sorta sad)
He liked taking biology in college.
I looked like a vampire with q-tips in my mouth (had to put pink gel on my gums to numb it a little before numbing it further).
There are holes in your skull and you gotta learn about them if youre premed. And nerves, and muscle, and groves, and other stuff.
Ill HAVE to memorize bones and stuff like that to be a doctor.
He didnt like high school (there are people like me out there!)
Those books that help you out for AP tests really do help you out
Ive got his number if I get any questions (ha ha)
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The above stuff was written on monday
During the night, I get breakthroughs
I shuffle around my bed thinking about how I can be a better person
Pray a little to a God (not god God, a god) if I get super restless
Think about charity, donating, good samaritan shit
I think about the world
Wish a lot
But then in the morning I seem to forget everything I thought about
And be a negative person
Maybe I am a vampire
I do better during the night
Your lord and master,
Lisa
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| Yes we're falling down |
| 08.23.06 (11:29 pm) [edit] |
Todays song-Pick somethign by the strokes
Im chatting with a guy
I know I got into ap psych
I know most of my schedule
Im gonna have some more time with my oral surgeon this sat.
For the past week I didnt feel as sad as I had when I wrote that depressing post
But now I cant breathe anymore
If I talk more about it
Maybe Ill get better
I dont want to go to school
I dont want to feel like a grown up
Today with all that wildcat day fuss shit, I felt so lost
Since I didnt have my enrollment form with me and had to find the guy who would print it out for me
Who I didnt find for quite a while
I had to cut in front of people in line to get my stupid passport which made me feel quite bad
And then I had to wait in line to return my library book
Which I should have turned in before
And I took a bad picture since my lips look like shit and Ive got so much acne
Plus I havent gotten used to shirts that "hug" my body yet
For the past two months and a half, Ive been wearing my home clothes which are basically pjs
Which are large items of clothing (ie my web shirt or a large pink tie dyed gone wrong shirt)
...So I did not feel comfy today
And then I find out that my schedule is a bust since Im missing AT and my counselor didnt change my PE class which I had asked for last year
AND I had all these cousins with me
I dunno why they wanted to go
High schools a drag
Someday in the future
My kids will ask me about it
Or Ill talk about it in a lecture like way
And tell them how much I hated it
And theyre gonna be like "woah, high school sucks"
Making it bad for them in the first place
And then theyre gonna think that it sucks
Ill have these depressed teenagers
If I didnt want a kid to love or want to provide my parents a grandkid, I would not have kids
Waay too many problems
Your lord and master,
Lisa
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| Im not gonna change til I want to |
| 08.18.06 (9:04 pm) [edit] |
Todays song-Obstinate by albert hammond jr.
Too bad I have to
Sometimes I get incredibly sad.
I wish to cry
I try to shake the feelings that like to settle in the middle of my chest off
Sometimes I cant breathe
Usually I get sad about the future
And about school
I hate school now
If I could, Id stop going forever
If only I could drop out
If only I could maybe stop living
I am a coward
Whos tired
Im tired of knowing that Im not gonna getting into an ivy league school, or almost ivy
Im tired of knowing that Im probably going to go to U of O
And go to community college for about two years
I dont want to worry about where Ill be living in Eugene
I dont want to think about what I have to do during high school to maybe increase my chances of doing something real after
I dont want to pay for my own things
I dont want to be an adult
I dont want to drive
I dont want to grow up
I dont want to join any fucking clubs
Why do we have to grow up
Why cant we just skip this stuff and go directly to our set lives?
My boring ass job
My almost exciting husband
My annoying kids
Bills
TV
War
When my friends think about these things they can go hang out with other people, take pills, talk to a shrink
But I cant
Im trapped in my own mind
Fuck I hate growing up
Your lord and master,
Lisa
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| Its hard to explain |
| 08.15.06 (7:47 am) [edit] |
Todays song-Modern Girls and Old Fashioned Men by the Strokes
Heres the dealio
IM HUNGRY
FOR MEAT
AND OTHER THINGS THAT NEED TO BE CHEWED.
Or is it "to be macerated"?
Maceration is the action of physically breaking down food into pieces. Chewing is a grinding action that only herbivores and omnivores do.
But if humans are omnivores than humans can chew.
Stupid bio.
Im getting off my original subject.
I NEED A STEAK AND SOME NACHOS FROM 7/11
Ahhh Ive only been eating yogurt, jello, and cream of chicken soup since saturday.
I can do this.
I ate rice and noodle for an entire month last year.
I should be ah who am I kidding.
Even then I had some meat.
I NEED TO EAT A COW!
I dont think its possible for me to be a vegetarian or vegan.
Why did I eat cake for breakfast?!
Sure Im a little low on the whole blood sugar front but still.
I have a baad headache.
Ive been up since 5.
I went to sleep at 12:30
Im on super painkillers that cause drowsiness.
Usually medicine cant make me sleepy but this stuff does.
I look like a chipmunk.
Or well half of my face does.
I took some pictures last night.
With my regular camera.
I wish I had a digital camera.
To quote my dad, "we're behind the times"
Your lord and master
Lisa
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| Severe Headache |
| 08.14.06 (5:03 pm) [edit] |
Todays song-Dont Panic by Coldplay
My headache could be from my painkillers or from the strawberry cheesecake yogurt I partially ate.
I dunno why I continue to consume yogurt when I dont like it.
Its hot.
Know what else is hot?
The oral surgeon who operated on me on saturday.
Oooh was he nice.
Hes foreign and had the hottest accent.
Curly chest hair which changed my opinion on chest hair on guys.
Stubble.
Giant dark dark chocolate eyes with eyelashes that clumped together.
Was super considerate.
In his mid twenties.
Still in med school.
Spent a good 2 and a half hours with him.
Wish I could spend some more, even if that means he has to do more stuff to my mouth.
So right, this is what he did.
-Introduced self and talked about what was gonna happen
-I rinsed out my mouth with some blue liquid and then he put bubble gum flavored gel on my gums to numb it before he numbed it further with five shots (two on my left side and three on my right). He made a joke about the flavors of the stuff
-Waited for the anesthetics to kick in.
-Made an incision on my left gum and
I would like to interupt this walk down memory lane and say this:
Shit I am hella sleepy
...and looked at my wisdom tooth.
-Drilled it to pieces and yanked the bits out with a giant tweezer looking like thing or his own fingers
-Repeat for the right wisdom tooth except a little faster.
Then I forgot to say bye and thanks to him which is making me feel really bad about it.
Course I was sorta tired of having my mouth wide open and staring at him and the overhead light thing.
[Ahhh I dont want to go back to sleep.]
Afterwards we went to fred meyers to get my painkillers and I saw michael in the tech section place.
That was nice.
First person from school Ive seen this summer.
[Im about to pass out now, whys it so hot?!]
Wasnt so nice how I was surrounded by attractive guys when I looked like I was mentally disabled.
My cheeks and lips were HUGE.
And right cheek is still big.
It looks like its hoarding food.
It woke me up this morning at eight and I had to take some more medine.
I spelled that wrong.
I dont even want to correct it.
Things Ive learned from Dr. Pretty Hot Oral Surgeon:
-There are two nerves that go from the ear section place to the end of your chin.
-My nerves are closer to my teeth than a normal person so I had a five percent chance of Dr. Pretty Hot Oral Surgeon touching it
-Theres a one percent chance of infection
-Anesthetics speed up your heartrate becasuse it makes the blood vessels smaller thus less bleeding
-The angle of my wisdom teeth seriously
interested the doctors at the dentist place
-Dr. Pretty Hot Oral Surgeon was soft
Since he couldnt switch sides to take out my right wisdom tooth, he pressed arainst me and put his arm around my head.
I did not object.
Im getting really sleepy.
Your ;prd and mster,
Lisa
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| I used to love radiohead unconditionally.. |
| 08.11.06 (6:40 pm) [edit] |
Todays song-"sumfing by va stwokes"
^Very funny
..but I no longer do. Maybe this is because I need a break from them. Like a long break.
Maybe I need a break from life also.
Tomorrow Im having two of my wisdom teeth dug out.
I say dug out because theyre fully grown in a horizontal position.
Which means theyre under my gums.
In, whatever.
This should freak me out, but as long as they shoot some strong anestetics into my gums, I dont see any blood and cant feel much then Ill be ok.
But if they put me out, then all the better.
Also, I think I might have a tumor in my cranium.
Based on what Ive seen on greys anatomy of course.
My left eye is weakening, Im really warm, the back of my frontal lobe is always pounding, my vision blacks out and I get lightheaded everytime I stand up, I feel like theres a lack of blood flowing to some section of my brain, Ive gained a hella lot of weight this year, and I cant think.
Or all of this is could be because I havent taken any eye vitamins, Ive got thick blood and intake little oxygen which could be causing my headaches or maybe cuz Aunt Flo has come to visit (ha ha, did anyone get that? ), the weight is from depression or a worm contracted from cambodia, and my neurons are finally "pruning" themselves [which means those uh snakey looking things are
unconmecting with each other and dying].
I wish I knew how to make clothes.
And speed read.
And weigh 105 pounds.
And have an iq of 200.
And knew french, russian, italian, and chinese.
And be five seven.
And could play the piano, guitar, bass, and drums.
And not go to westview.
And much, much more.
Your lord and master,
Lisa
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| BOOP |
| 08.03.06 (5:48 pm) [edit] |
Todays song-I'd Rather Dance with You by Kings of Convenience
I'd rather dance, I'd rather dance than talk with you
I'd rather dance, I'd rather dance than talk with you
The music's too loud and the noise from the crowd
Increases the chance of misinterpretation
So let your hips do the talking
I have half a book left and a pile of old newpaper articles to read until starting on another book.
A book by dickens, biology for dummies, or this other rape topic book.
Frankly, I dont want to read any of those three.
Must buy:
New shirts
Bio book
Binder
Notebooks
Must get:
Kings of Convenience cd
Azure Ray cd
The Rentals cd
Feist cd
Regina Spektor cd
Ahhhhhh I wish I had a smaller chest.
Like a 34A
The Fatass's Plan to A Better Bod Then Now(do such everyday)
-Run around neighborhood
-Do fifty curl ups
-Ten push ups
-Two sets twenty of those funny arm things for each arm twice a day
-Eat better
-Drink two glasses of water
What The Fatass Will Actually Do Instead (everyday)
-Eat pizza/other junk food item
-Drink juice
-Sit around
-Mope about self appearance
I gotta get a grip on myself.
Self-actualization
Ryan Adams does a pretty nice cover of Wonderwall
I wonder if Ill ever have a complete thought again.
Something that takes up a whole paragraph.
A whole paragraph?!
Nonsense.
Your lord and master,
Lisa
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Indie Rock | | 83% |
Classic Rock. | | 67% |
Emo & More | | 67% |
Indie | | 63% |
Punk & Pop Punk. | | 50% |
Britpop | | 46% |
Ska | | 42% |
Hip Hop & Rap | | 42% |
Industrial | | 38% |
Mainstream | | 33% |
Hardcore | | 25% |
Country | | 13% |
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