Ah, Lisa exemplifies the process of disowning the true self. With puberty she went from being a whole, authentic person to a diminished version of herself.
why? because its at full volume and Im singing along with it
Im pretty much alone with calvin with the music way up
I cooked scrambled eggs, toast with jelly, and sausages for breakfast
the inspiration came from the movie click when the kids were eating the same thing
I watched it this morning
since I still couldnt get up until 11
its about 1:20 now
Ive recently started hugging the shit out of my moshi microbead pillow
Ive come to realize that I only do that when my heart is desiring something to the extreme
But Ill keep what Im desiring a secret
(hint-its a person)
Im so lame
Im so excited for the library to open again tomorrow
I need to call those downtown guys
Im so horrible, its been a week and I havent called them back about hosting that project over there tomorrow
what a shit head!
I feel like Im exiting the latency period I was in
you know, since I skipped it in elementary school straight up to the last stage
Gawd. I sorta adore conner oburst or however its spelled
He resembles what I think holden caulfield would look like
Its about 9:30, normal kids would be at school.
Like right now I would be starting an ap bio final.
But nope.
I just woke up, am eating a croissant, and is about to study ap psych some more.
I like mornings when the sun is out and its still chilly
You can tell if someone bought shitty aviators when theyre really shiny
Haha, I love knowing they have cheap sunglasses on
Especially when theyre guys who cant handle the look
Or girls who obviously dont listen to garage rock
Todays song-Here Today, Gone Tomorrow (cover) by Rooney
I am going to attempt at writing a blog in seven minutes because its morning and I have to go to that lame place called high school.
Usually I would play solitaire during this lonely time, but I thought I should do something more productive.
I dunno if I could call this more productive though, random strangers read this blog instead of my friends (who used to read this-I doubt they remember this site)
Ive been faced with a lot of internal conflict nowadays.
Depression, the shallow want of a jacket Ive been waiting months for, having no money, sucking up to my greedy aunts, being patient with my idiot cousins (includes those who attend elementary school and menda), wearing these god awful jeans (sevens fit me like an extra large shirt on a midget), gaining weight, molar braces, not seeing my mom, blaming my aunt for everything
Ive just realized that my aunts are trying to kill me.
Theres that crazy one who escaped the mental hospital.
The vain one who doesnt have a fashion sense yet has lots of money and clothes.
The "helpful" one who first sparked my depression, made my mom get a second job, pressures me to do well in school
The handicapped one w ho did stuff I dunno what to my sister
Oh god.
Maybe I should stay away from all family members who dont live in this house besides my uncle david, aunt debbie and little cousin renee
Cuz I love them dearly
So that jacket I wanted.
Its been out since fall.
60 dollars in the beginning
the most beautiful jacket Ive ever seen
and now 22 at macys
Who spent all of her money on future harry potter shit?
Me.
Ive got nothing.
Well..11 dollars
BUT THATS NOTHING!
65 dollars of my money is in a little white box I made out of computer paper in my pappy's desk locked away til july
Oh
My ipod broke
I went to fix it
5 months out of its warranty
Goddamn
