Neo-Lisaism

Ah, Lisa exemplifies the process of disowning the true self.
With puberty she went from being a whole, authentic person to a diminished version of herself.

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whats a mastodon?
07.26.07 (10:51 pm)   [edit]
todays song-the fatalist by robbers on high streeet


theres nothing like eating habits like this:
saturday-a couple of mad greek deli fries
sunday-greek fries, rice
monday-pizza, rice
tuesday-pizza, taquitos, rice
wednesday-pizza, taquitos, rice, chips, jello
thursday-carrots, taquitos, eggy bread, chocolate, jello

uh, what am I gonna eat tomorrow?
its as if the more processed foods I eat, the more I actually consume!

theres also nothing like watching mo'niques fat competition and deciding that I should never even try to come close to being like that
and seeing my sister walk around in clothes id like to wear but wont cuz ive got a middle



I ought to run.


fuck. I even read a anti eating disorder article today
two actually!
one in the newspaper and one on the internet

both were related to harry potter in a way so yah know



i love harry potter.
















Your lord and master,
Lisa
 
Excited for harry potter
07.19.07 (10:53 pm)   [edit]
Todays song - across your knees by robbers on high street




I have just realized that I am attractive to cute near emo kids who are underdeveloped in the other gender experience


Damn.











Your lord and master,
Lisa
 
All night mugglecast
07.16.07 (5:36 am)   [edit]
Todays song-Smokers Outside the... by the Editors

who are really ugly. Im sorta sadden to see them ugly.
But theyre like a british interpol
I sorta prefer interpol actually, I might change my music right now
They look way better too, minus the weird old italian guy



Shit, I wish I could sleep.
Its 5:30ish and Ive been up for more than an hour or so
This is what I get for listening to my ipod during the night
I sleep late, wake up early



At winco I saw this rather obese lady with a stuff animal frog in the childs seat of a shopping cart
it had a diaper on and was half covered by a pink baby blanket
I sorta got really sad watching her shop for healthy food
"Why is she so fat if shes buying only healthy stuff? Does she want children really badly? Is she mentally ill?"
There are nutters in portland and theyre coming out


I like amy winehouse so much more than lily allen



My fingers and toes are pieces of shit




Nothing has happened since my last post other than I finally talked to michael
Maybe theres hope for a social life after all

Ive also started on summer homework
Gawd.
I hate life.














Your lord and master,
Lisa
 
I weigh 124 and hate myself
07.08.07 (9:44 pm)   [edit]
Todays song - wizard rock


and right now Im depressed because I accidentally did something which made all of what I had previously wrote disappear

it was about how no one reads this and I have animosity since no one is logical enough to continue reading my shit nor google me up (or bother to)

And its also about how I spend ninety eight percent of my AIM time invisible so I can avoid people talking to me
Examples are michael, nataly, natalie
Well actually, its more like so I can avoid the feeling I get when they dont talk to me back

I am so anti people it hurts
Well actually, it doesnt just because Ive deloped a tolerance


Ive also developed grudges
Particularly in math and science
See, I do not like having Leeda in my science class just because Ive always thought I was a little better than her in the intelligence department
It was a bit of a blow when I discovered that her motivation towards ap bio was much higher than mine
which naturally threatened me to the point where I did nothing

And math.
Also math.
I want to be like one of those smart people in math. But Im not. Ive above average.
Plus dobashi was a skivy douchebag who implied that I was a failure at life cuz I sucked at math everytime he had those life lectures and test talks
GAWD.

I hate westview.
I hate how in my freshman year I got a 4.0
And then in my first semester of sophmore year I got two Cs and a B
And then in second semester I got a C and a D
I hate how theres no males that I can really connect to and be a real impact in their lives
I hate how it takes more than hanging out at school for friendships and relationships
I hate how Im restricted to school and the neighborhood where I have no friends
I hate all of the teachers who do not care about me
I hate how I hear stories of people being called into the counselors office for acting funny when I have to go to them for advice (only academics)

I hate this hole Ive dug up and have to climb out of.
I hate how I have to do so much to enter adulthood, which I wont fully enter until after a few years after I finish college and med school
I hate thinking about how little time Ill spend with my children because Ill be a doctor
I hate how hard itll be to find my life partner

I hate how I wasnt born an animal who had an IQ of 15 instead of a teenaged girl of 150!!
I hate how Im asian.



Someday, if this site isnt closed down and all of my posts are gone
I might look back
and laugh
but Ill fake laugh now to fill up my loser self




America;s next top model always makes me feel better about my self esteem, looks, power, and stance
Maaybe its on
Amazing since its a show about models
those who every girl wants to be
with the exception of my cousin amanda who is a unknown















Your lord and master,
Lisa

I just cant give this endnote up

I love megan mccaffertys work
 





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